Bromosexual

by Daryl Banner

Denial is the most powerful force on Earth. Maybe even more powerful than love. Or anger. Or ego.

I laugh dryly at that, then catch my eyes drifting down to his ass. I wonder if he did check out my ass back then. I guess I never noticed because all guys look at other guys. I don’t care if you’re gay or straight; we all notice each other. It’s how we know who to look out for when the competition for girls gets serious. It’s also how we size each other up on the field.

Growing up is terrifying. When you’re young, you have this feeling inside of you that you’ll eventually get the chance to do and try everything in life, because life looks so infinitely long from the perspective of a kid. Then suddenly, you realize that every choice you make unchooses all the other ones. This isn’t a video game. There’s no reset button and no infinite lives. Every single decision I make is permanent, and the more I make, the slimmer my path becomes in this shrinking, dark forest we call adulthood.