Rest in the Mourning

by R.H. Sin

you’re going to overthink yourself into an oblivion you’ve been drowning in a sea of your own emotions

you find yourself smiling while sadness soaks your soul

sometimes we wear masks so long to hide what we truly feel that those layers become an extra skin, a part of our identity

you seem stronger you seem unbreakable but even the strongest heart gets broken even the strongest soul feels weak

even though you’d like to keep your sadness at bay fooling those who surround you with the strength of your laughter and the size of your smile

isn’t that why you choose to stay it’s much harder to walk away because you’re in love with the person they’ve promised to become

i hope you discover the type of love that you’ve wasted upon others

i hope you understand that what you demand is never too much

and if what you request begins to feel like a burden then you’re expecting those thi...

it’s nights like this where your own vulnerability becomes your worst enemy

self-medicating through text messages responding to his latest ‘‘i miss you’’ unable to process the fact that these words are often used by men who are just bored or men who will never make the effort to show up

do your heart a favor and ignore his texts

don’t trust words the only truth worth entertaining lives within the actions of man even the devil appears kind behind the right wording

see: the movies taught us fairy tales unrealistic representations of romance and music helped us associate pain with love and so we search for things that resemble the images on a big screen and a love that feels like our favorite songs longing for real love living with unrealistic expectations

her greatest battles are fought after midnight, while alone she saves herself

loving the wrong person will steal your time and strip you of your youth

wanting someone who doesn’t deserve you is hell on earth

a player is just a nicer way of calling a man a whore

preserve it all. be single and save yourself for a relationship that motivates you to become the best version of yourself be single until you find a love that resembles the type of love you’ve been fighting for

relationships are more like hell you’re just there trying your hardest not to get burned

smiling becomes an emotional lie

laughing to drown out the sound of your own heart breaking

don’t think about what you lost realize what you’ve gained an opportunity to be loved instead of taken for granted another chance at a love that isn’t filled with pain find rest in the mourning

still ready to go to war for the love that i deserve the love that you’re not strong enough to provide

when the past sends you a text don’t reply say nothing

if up to me my next relationship would be my last relationship

because i loved the feeling of making up i loved that feeling of going to war with you as the enemy and somehow returning with you as my ally

i think we do that sometimes and maybe i’ve done that too much losing myself for a love that never existed

but until then know your worth know your strength and protect your heart

understand the importance in what and in whom you invest your time, love, and energy

it hasn’t been easy every day is a battle but you’re fighting alone because he’s not willing to make an effort

i see you i know it hurts but you’re strong

she never needed to be saved she only wanted to be loved the correct way she wasn’t looking for a hero all she wanted was someone she could trust outside of herself

nurse your own wounds then turn your pain into power turn your heartache into wisdom

we fight through the hardest parts we survive these emotional wars that leave our hearts bruised and broken

to gain you have to lose

i’m convinced that heartache is a form of insomnia

she didn’t ask to be protected that’s not what she wanted she knew a war was happening and she reached for a weapon she didn’t want to be the victim she preferred to fight she was willing to be the hero

i hope you find someone who encourages you to sleep peacefully at night

i wear these scars like tattoos symbols of my own survival

they love you until it ends breakups occur and the hate begins

i feel nothing i feel empty

what we really need is to let go in order to find something worth holding on to

i’ve always been different a rare breed of human an odd occurrence to those who have known me some sort of blessing to anyone brave enough to love me and the greatest loss to those who didn’t deserve to keep me

i got tired of being the victim for once i wanted to fight go to war battle it out for once i wanted to be my own hero because you were incapable of saving me

you’re just tired that’s it you’ve been fighting for their love and affection for so long that you’ve forgotten how to love yourself

your part in my story was over and i had to accept it

you shouldn’t have to destroy yourself to keep him whole

warn your daughters about the type of men who hurt hearts raise your sons to be the type of men who refuse to cause pain

the hardest thing you’ll ever learn is how to let go of the things that used to be worthy of your energy