“When I figured out what I had really done,” James said, “when I realized that the entire world was going to know that I had destroyed my family, it was like I was running headfirst into a moving train and I couldn’t jump off the tracks to get away. I had to convince myself that I was in love with her, that love had made me do this horrible thing.” He sighed. “Otherwise I had thrown my whole life away for absolutely nothing.”
