The theater was silent and everyone was totally into it when I screamed out “GIVE HIM A FUCKING OSCAR!!!! HA HA HA HA!!!!!!!!!” Even in my distorted inebriated state, I realized it was a hurtful shitty thing to do. The producer tiptoed over and told me to shut up. I realized I had embarrassed myself, and much worse, embarrassed Bill, who was there, after all, with his mom. Now, I have done and said a lot of insensitive, thoughtless, shitty things in my life, probably much worse than that, especially when I used to drink. I wanted to prove how wild I was (needing to prove something, my
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