But the truth is, I was an asshole. Once I realized the deal was that she loved me no matter what, and would pine for me when I ran off with my friends, I was callous with her feelings. I used the relationship when it was convenient. I had no idea what I was doing. I had never seen a healthy relationship, and it was gonna be a long time before I even began to try to understand how to build one. A pompous fool, I loved having someone who thought I was cool and propped up my ego.
