Rayford was learning joy in the midst of sorrow. His heart told him Amanda was alive. His mind told him she was dead. As for her betrayal of him, of the Tribulation Force, and ultimately of God himself, neither Rayford’s head nor heart accepted that.
I see where this is going. Rayford won't believe that Amanda is a traitor until he finds her and sees that she doesn't have a forehead cross. Very dramatic.
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