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“I hate it in England, Mam. I don’t have any friends, and everyone at school teases me for the way I talk.”
I didn’t like it when I made her mad. It made me feel bad. It made my face grow hot.
:((
“She appears to have no memory of what she does.”
This infuriates me, like realy chloe
“It’s not your fault, Lizzie.” Mammy smiled and crouched down in front of me. “You haven’t done anything.” I reached up and cupped her cheek in my small hand.
BROOOOO
“And remember that Mammy loves you very much.” I love you, too, Mammy.
Shes the only one that says it :(((
“She’s a fucking lunatic, Mam.” “Don’t you dare call your sister that word.” “Why not? It’s the truth. Half the time she’s a mute, and the other half, she’s screaming her head off and attacking anyone who gets near her.”
“I don’t want to be me anymore.” “Why would you say that?” “Because I’m bad.” “You’re not bad, sweetheart.”
Jaysus christ this is going to wreak me
Oh no. The voice was back. The scary voice. The one that made me wet the bed. The one that made me fight. Clamping my hands over my ears, I hummed loudly to drown it out. I had to make the voice go away.
Really chloe, is this all bc we hated her? Like fr, every possible trope to throw at the poor girl
“What’s to talk about? That monster found us, she took my child, and I’m leaving before she can do it again.” “Yes, but she didn’t hurt her. She took her for a couple of hours and brought her back.”
Who tf is this lady
“Not like her, they don’t,” Caoimhe wailed into her pillow. “You clearly haven’t met Joey,”
LOL
“I told you everything, Darren. You know what she cost me.” Sniffling, she turned to glare at me again. “You better hope the cancer doesn’t kill Mam, because if it does, you’ll be out of this house before she’s cold in the ground, and good fucking riddance.” “Jesus Christ, Caoimhe!”
Goddamn
“Then my wish came true.” “What wish, sweetheart?” “I used my birthday wish on you,” I replied happily. “To make you better, and it worked.”
“It’s not… I’m, uh, it’s a private family matter,” Caoimhe replied, cheeks turning red.
“She won’t tell your father we were kissing, right?” he asked, looking over his shoulder at my sister. “She can keep her mouth shut?”
Oh this is fucking disgusting
“Did he hurt her or something?” “No,” Caoimhe snapped, sounding angry now. “Why would our dad hurt her?”
“She looks like a little angel.” Mark smiled and crouched down in front of me. “Do you like me, munchkin? Hmm? Are you going to talk to me?”
Side fucking eye
“Would you like that, munchkin?” Mark asked, hand on my shoulder. “Would you like me to fix you?” Nodding, I smiled back at him. Yes, please.
Chloe this is mean
I smiled when he locked the door behind him because that meant he was going to fix me again.
The parallels
We could argue, fight, and say the worst things to each other and still be okay because we were brothers, and brothers always came back together in the end.
Mrs. Grady was even older than Old Murphy, but she wasn’t a grouch like him.
Especially about the asshole Sadhbh was kissing instead of Joe, but I did as my mother asked. Keith Allen. Puke.
“Yeah, because you broke it!” Gibs choked out, backing away from his mother. “You and your asshole boyfriend.”
Facts
“You’re going to get in deep trouble because of me.” “I don’t care,” I told her. “He hurt my friend. He made you cry.” “Yeah, but you made him bleed,” she replied, chewing her lip. “You’re going to get punished.”
I didn’t feel bad, though. I didn’t feel like screaming. Instead, I felt warm. My thoughts were nice and slow. It always happened when I sat next to Shannon Lynch.
Oh jesus christ im a bitch
yes yes ill admit it
Claire was loud and funny, and she made me feel happy. Shannon was quiet and calm and made me feel safe.
“You’re different, Lizzie Young.” “I am?” She nodded and smiled. “You’re special.” “Is that bad?” “No.” She shook her head, still smiling. “You remind me of Joe.”
STOPPPPPPPP
Daddy had blue eyes, too, but they looked pale and sad. Like mine.
“He pushed my friend.” Was I saying it wrong? Why couldn’t he hear me? “He’s a mean boy, Daddy,”
Ugh i hate her dad
I wasn’t supposed to see her. But I did.
“So you never know, son,” Dad teased. “One of these names could be the name you say on your wedding day.” Shuddering, I gaped at him in horror. “Is that supposed to make me feel better?”
Lol
“Her name is Claire,” I growled, feeling my body tremble with anger as I moved to stand with my friends. “So why don’t you fuck off!”
Oh yeah shes six
Because they were afraid of him. Because he got into a lot of fights at school. Even more than me.
Ugh i love him
even as a child hes charming
“Yeah,” Joey agreed with a dangerous chuckle, closing the space she put between them. “But I’m a scumbag that’ll tear your fucking world apart if you touch my sister again.” Whoa.
Like a tiny river of blood, the voice whispered from the dark corner of my mind, you belong to the water, little bee.
I have to keep telling myself this isnt a fantasy book
“But I can’t turn my mind off,” I protested. “It never stops talking to me.”
Me too queen
“And he can’t stand…well, let’s just say he’s not the biggest fan of the friends I’ve made at Tommen.”
? Hmm who
I had a niggling feeling they would always look at each other like that.
Bc they will
I could tell she wasn’t a fan, but she was here right now, rocking the coolest costume I’d ever seen.
“Fine,” Hugh said, holding his hand up. I blushed with heat. “All in favor of Liz joining the gang, raise your hands.” Everyone raised their hands.
:((( aww poor baby
“Hmm.” Mark didn’t look happy. “I don’t know how I feel about you cheating on me, munchkin.”
Oh im going to be sick
Shivering, I clenched my eyes shut and thought happy thoughts. I thought of Hugh.
IM SOBBING THIS IS NOT OKAY
“You’re shit at being a lady.” “That’s because I don’t want to be a lady,” she called back with a grin. “I want to be a knight like you.”
“Thank you so much.” Mam smiled and shook her hand. “And it’s wonderful to finally meet you ladies.”
:(( thats sad bc they ghost her after all this shit smh
The more pain I felt, the calmer my mind grew.
:(((((( chloe shes fucking 6 for crying out loud
“I’ll call Grandad Healy and that’s my final offer,” I replied, standing firm. “Fine, you can call Grandad,”
He thought he was so much tougher and cooler than us because he was a teenager, when in fact, all he was better at doing was being a fucking creep. “I hate that guy!”
Me too king
I was all too familiar with the creepy crawlies that she collected in jars with Gibs, but knowing Claire, she would try to feed them to me in my sleep if I didn’t give in.
Stop shes so cute but chloe fucking hates that poor girl
Groaning, I fought the urge to run upstairs and die from my shame in private.
LMAOOO
“I think Hughie is Lizzie’s boyfriend,” Claire offered. “Like Gerard is my boyfriend.” “No, I’m not,” I argued, feeling all sweaty and awkward, as I hovered in the archway. “And Gibsie isn’t yours, either.”
LOL the same convo takes place 10 years later
“But just because the grown-ups do bad things, doesn’t mean the kids are to blame.”
Okay yes shes right HOWEVER
