Shadowfever (Fever #5)

by Karen Marie Moning

I’ve held it at bay as long as I can. Grief crashes over me, drowning me. Alina. Barrons. Mom and Dad, too? I can’t bear it. I can’t keep it all in. I cram a fist in my mouth to stop my screams. I can’t let anyone hear. He would know I’m not what I pretend to be. What I must be to fix my world.

Ummm. Didnt he say he could fell strong emotion? You're not fooling him then.