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I wasn’t dense and knew what she did for Case House. I knew and understood it and still wanted her. I wanted to remove her from that life.
It was my business when you were begging me to put this dick on your tongue. Stop fucking playing with me, yo. You came here for what? Get forgiveness and blessings to move on… fuck all that shit. I wish you hell, Wench!” I hollered.
Giving a fuck hurt more than people liked to admit.
Landon Caselli was art.
I knew like hell a book bae from my kindle didn’t emerge in real life.
His tattoos told a story that I was more interested in than my kindle at that moment.
“Hey superstar… we closed the studio down so you can film today.” “Film what?”
“Yeah, well, I told you I’m intentional with the shit I do.” He reached into his pocket and pulled his phone out. “I have my ways to get your number but wanted it to come from you.”
Don had the kind of dick that would have you looking for him in the daytime with a flashlight, and a bitch ain’t never had dick that good.
“Sorry in advance, Bleu,” he apologized, and I had a feeling I was gonna know exactly why he was apologizing,
This man was a fucking tyrant with the way he kept this smirk on his face as his hands found their way to my waist, and he gripped it and slammed me down.
He bit my shoulder, then kissed it like it was an apology he didn’t mean.
“Coat my dick for me, Bleu.”
Collapsing on my back, I stared at him, not knowing what to say or do. His fingers slid down my body, gently, and with intention. As if he was making my body a promise without saying a word.
She was a part of me now, and now I needed her Social Security number so I could add her to my health insurance. Needed them teeth strong, so when I slid her back onto this dick her teeth could take it.
Now I was really fucking confused and slightly concerned because it was quiet as shit. “Then why the fuck did you call me?” “Had meatloaf for dinner.” He sounded like he had been personally victimized, and needed some emotional support, but didn’t know who to call. I held my laugh because he was serious. “Oh, yeah… how was that?” “Who the fuck willingly eats meat cake, Don? You eat that shit? I ain’t never seen that shit made before.”
“You said you hate your fucking brother and want him to die… shit fucked up.”
I thought her grandfather was into some racist shit before I realized that Greene and Navy were literally named after colors. “I can’t sit here and make a bunch of promises on the future because all of that is in Navy’s hands. I can say that if things move more seriously, I plan to take her serious and honor my word when it comes to her.”
They ain’t even know with the way I was wrapped around Navy, I was about to fuck around and give her my last name, make her a billionaire, and retire the whole fucking family.
“You so used to fucking for money that you don’t know what intimacy is. Shit, I don’t, either, but I’m fucking trying and all I’m met with is resistance.”
If I know anything, if you’re not happy now, you will never be happy.”
You all get Menace, I get Maverick… there’s a difference.
You hurt Landon by not being truthful. You thought about only you, and now you want someone to smooth it over and make it alright for you.
“Stupid Toni Braxton contractions,”
😀😀😀
“Do you want to do all those things for her?” I asked, not really wanting to know the answer to the question. Hearing him admit that would hurt, and I didn’t have the right to be hurt because I was the person that did this to us both. “Hell yeah.”
“Sending me a wedding invitation was wild.” “You and a plus one are welcomed, Landon.” “Don,” he corrected and walked away.
Having sex with him and making this deal of being strangers was a mistake. It was too soon, and I was realizing that as my heart slammed against my chest while staring at him.
A simple text saying you needed space would have been straight. Communication is big with me.”
I’m not worried about the future right now. I wanna know why you’re not okay right now.”
“You could give the nigga the world, and he’d still want another planet. This not on you, Bleu… you were perfect.”
“Fuck that shit… I’mma feed you, Bleu.” It was the wink as he walked away, and I ran behind his ass quick.
“Opening up to people is hard for me. I don’t do that shit and avoid anything real because that means I have to be real. Transparent and true with the person I’m letting in. With you, I want to be all of that because your presence makes me want to. Navy, you introduced me to your family, so I felt it was only right to show you a piece of mine.”
His safe space.
This look felt different to me. I wasn’t ready to remove her from my life. I wanted her to stare at me like this. I wanted to know the thoughts behind this look. “This mine?” She nodded her head yes, as she tried to grip anything.
“Why would I ask about what a man wants with your body?”
Navy, you are pregnant.”
“Your pregnancy test came back positive.” “God, no!” I screeched, as my mother held my hand.
“How stupid was I? Having sex with two men during the same time… putting myself at risk like diseases don’t exist!” I screamed, as tears fell from my face. “A baby? A pregnancy! I never wanted any of this, Mommy!”
“Pooh, I’m three blinks from crashing out. You telling me you with your ex-nigga… after I slid up inside of you. Fucking told you I didn’t want to be strangers. This how you playing shit, baby?” “We were talking, Don.” “What the fuck is my name, Bleu?” “Landon… we were talking. I’m coming now.”
Anybody who could talk that calm and know how many blinks it took before they came out of character couldn’t be trusted.
“You hate my baby, Landon?” “Stevie, what?”
“Who is Dennis?” “My fucking son. You don’t give a fuck about your nephew?” he asked, and I shook my head because all these fucking names had me confused.
Why would she say she was stupid? Navy could never be stupid, even if she tried. What the fuck did she get herself mixed into?
“Be fair, Bleu… let me process it.” “You’re right. Sorry.”
I just met my nephew earlier and I felt nothing. Not like I didn’t love him, or no shit like that. Honestly, I ain’t even know the little nigga, but there was love there.
When I saw Corleon and Jeffie holding and loving on him, you could tell that was something that they wanted.
“I don’t want children, Landon, I don’t desire to be a mother. Yes, that may be weird to you. No, you cannot change my mind. This is something that I want. You can go on about your way if this doesn’t align with your life. I am perfectly fine walking away and putting my wants and desires first.”
“You said you wanted me to court you. I want to get to know you, Navy… not fucking worry about no kids.”
When we come back, I want you and your parents to meet my family.”
“And I’m not a gold digger in your eyes?” “Where the fuck you pulling this shit from? I’m handing you the shovel… dig, Bleu.” I winked, and she kicked her feet excited. “You can walk away, Landon… no hard feelings.” I kissed her shoulders. “Can I still fuck you?”
