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The fact that I allowed myself to get so drunk, not thinking of the usual shit was dangerous. It was for me to always be on my game, and Navy’s family made sure I was straight. Her father took me to their home and made sure I was safe. They didn’t give a fuck about the money or who I was. They were good people, and it was in their nature to do shit like that for the people that came into their circle. You could tell a lot about a person when it came to their family. Navy was raised around a family that were tight-knit and were good people, which made her a good person.
🥹🥺 it’s so bittersweet because he knows that he loves his family but seeing how close knit navy’s family is, he wishes for that closeness they exude.
He didn’t take in account that I was the outsider. This could go differently for me if Menace ever found out about us. While he would be banished to a beautiful penthouse, I was back on the streets, trying to claw my way back to the top. I didn’t want to go far with Don because I knew only one of us would end up hurt. Landon would go on with his life and find another woman that could give him what he needed, while I was exiled and didn’t have anyone to turn to. Things were best this way, and the sneaking around that we were doing would have to come to a stop, eventually. It was the allure that
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mmmmm i never thought about this. this was provably why she didn’t take things further than forbidden
Don was a lover boy, a man that wanted to show off his woman and give her everything she desired. He was intentional about the things that he did when he cared about you. Not everyone got that version of him.
Affection was something that they went so long without that it was a foreign concept to them. They never said they loved each other, and there was always distance between them. As if they loved having their own lives away from the only family they had. Don wanted affection and love, and that was because he never had it.
I gave them a dream, and they provided me with the funds for coming through for their fantasy. There wasn’t long talks about feelings or emotions, and I wasn’t being taken away on romantic getaways out of town. Whenever I was flown out by one of my clients, it was because I was there to provide a service. Sit on their arms, stroke their egos, and fuck them until their balls were empty. It wasn’t because I was in love and wanted to be there. Money was the goal.
I wasn’t used to being chosen when it came to men. Unless there was a transaction and I had become used to that. Feelings caused people to lose everything, and I didn’t need that in my life. Choosing and loving Landon could cause me to lose everything.
this is such a heartbreaking mentality but when it’s everything she’s known to doing and understanding that having that security in money because it won’t hurt her, she’s bound to feel this way. she won’t ever be happy in the afterlife though.
“I know I can fuck you despite that scowl on your face. Ken, I don’t want that… I wanna know what your skin feels like against my skin. How you smell before the sweat leaves your pores. I want to get to know you because I know that niggas don’t ever do that with you. I feel like it’s easier to get you to open up by booking you through Case House.”
“Then what the fuck is all of this for? I went out my way to make this happen for you.” “I didn’t ask for this… none of it.” He nodded his head and then tossed the glass bowl across the room. I cowered, and he continued tossing everything that he was gonna make onto the floor. “Don’t ever gotta expect it, either.”
Now it was her turn to be offended. “I’m very happy in my marriage. That man that you all get, I don’t get the same man. You all get Menace, I get Maverick… there’s a difference. Alex is an older man who isn’t going to change his ways for you. If anything, it’s gonna be expected for you to fall into line with his lifestyle.”
“One second,” I heard a female voice over the speakers, and then she ran rounding the corner. “Oh hey,” she greeted. It was Greene’s cousin that she insisted on inviting to my birthday dinner. She arrived with Greene, greeted everyone, and then proceeded to keep her head stuck in her kindle. She made no conversations with us and acted like she was better than us.
She wore his shirt, and it fell right before her thighs, and she wore a pair of brief boxers. Her braids were half taken out, some in a bun, and some of her actual hair hanging out of the bun. Sis’ was real comfortable for somebody that didn’t know Landon Caselli like that. He didn’t even allow people to get comfortable in his space like that, and she seemed at ease.
oh girlfriend made herself real comfortable SKSJSSKSJ just wait until kennedy finds out navy was the girl stevie was referring to
I stood there clutching my purse and feeling angry that he was doing this. He was trying to make me jealous with her, and it was working. All we needed to do was talk, and he was making it difficult.
um sis not everything is about you—landon is close to falling head over heels for miss navy bleu so keep it cute!
“Did you call and tell me you were coming over?” “No, I figured I would po—” “Did the front desk speak to me when they called up here?” “I don’t know, he never—” He leaned forward. “I’ll answer that… nah. Navy answered the call ‘cause I was on an important business call that I needed to handle for Menace because he’s a father now. I didn’t know you were coming over, and honestly, don’t do the shit again. Fuck I gotta make you jealous for? You are getting married, Ken… that’s where your focus should be.”
“I didn’t fuck her though, Ken. That’s what you keep forgetting. I didn’t fuck her, take her out on dates, and let her know how the fuck I felt. And she never fed into my shit and played funky ass games with me, either. She told me off the rip she had a man that she wasn’t coming up off and I respected that.”
“Do you want to do all those things for her?” I asked, not really wanting to know the answer to the question. Hearing him admit that would hurt, and I didn’t have the right to be hurt because I was the person that did this to us both. “Hell yeah.”
i’m sorry girlie but you made your decision when you chose to marry that man. had you allowed yourself to feel the relationship none of this would be happening.
She was still dancing to the headphones, and then turned in my direction, nearly jumping out her skin. “I’m sorry… you needed me for something?” “No. I wouldn’t waste your time with him. He’s still in love with me and just admitted it knowing that I’m getting married,” I lied, and I knew it was childish, but I was heavily in my feelings.
I would be lying if there wasn’t a small piece of me that missed Landon and wanted him in my space, too. The funny part was that we were the same person when it came to being alone. He loved his solitude just as much as I did, but it felt nice being in his space with him.
Along the way, my dreams didn’t matter as much as his. I became less important, always nagging, and swearing that I wanted to sabotage what he was trying to accomplish. I wasn’t the girlfriend he used to brag about, call fifteen times a day, and make those same promises to. Distance and time had changed us both. We weren’t the two kids that were both excited to be accepted into the same college. Life happened. Growth happened.
When in reality, he had broken my heart as he sat at my desk after Don dropped me home that night. Told me that we needed space and that we were growing in different directions. Though he wasn’t wrong. His decision didn’t come from sitting and thinking on it. It was something he had been wanting to do and didn’t have the heart or balls to do. Using the excuse of Don was perfect for him.
exactly —had he voiced his opinions long time ago i don’t think she would’ve been as heartbroken. she would’ve been sad cause she was losing a friend she grew up with but understood it needed to happen.
“Nutting in my girlfriend isn’t fucking trapping you, Navy.” He had the same ass argument. “When I said I don’t want any kids, you are trapping me. When you are taking your own wants above mine, that is trapping me.” He sighed. “Mila is pregnant.”
“Get the fuck out of my house… get the fuck out of my life and forget we ever shared anything!” I screamed, picking up the other one and tossing it at his torso. “I wanted this shit with you, Navy! Wanted to have kids, the marriage and life with you. You so fucking head strong and independent that you never allowed that to happen.”
Glass was shattered all over the front and my heart hurt. Why did he have to do this to me? I was taking the breakup as well as I could, and he had to come and twist the knife in my chest. Give him the emotions he wanted the night he decided to end our relationship. Me and Mila were in the same circles.
With all of those things, you would have thought I would have started on the long list of shit I had to do. No. I was down the block at my favorite Chinese spot trying to get chicken wings and french fries with extra ketchup on them. The only thing that would make me feel better.
It was draining and with me having so much on my plate, I just needed a minute. I needed someone to come and make everything better. Help me forget about the pile of laundry sitting in the middle of my bedroom, or the ton of past due bills that I hadn’t gotten around to paying.
Having sex with him and making this deal of being strangers was a mistake. It was too soon, and I was realizing that as my heart slammed against my chest while staring at him.
“I’m not a fucking dog, Bleu. I don’t need you to put out energy or give me attention. A simple text saying you needed space would have been straight. Communication is big with me.” I half expected him to argue me down and make it about himself, but him being more upset with the lack of communication than me blatantly ignoring him spoke volumes on who he was. “You’re right. I’m sorry,” my voice cracked.