Deep End

by Ali Hazelwood

barbecue. I know you think she’s hot. You said so.

Yep that

“You had a boyfriend, and that was it. But she didn’t forget. She knew I found you attractive, would tease me about it, in her way.

Lol

and…Scarlett.” His thumb swipes under my eye. “Why are you crying?”

Oh shoot he's dreaming of living his life with her.. That's his dream

“Guess what? You have a different body now. Stop living in the past. You’re less flexible but have better control. What you need is consistency.”

Mei is such a real one and clocking the hell out of scarlett.. I hoped she'd stick around more honestly

“Send me your TiVos if you need pointers. I love telling people what they’re doing wrong.”

Ayeee she a real one fr

It’s shitty, leaving a party without telling anyone, but I call an Uber.

Bro why is she always like this.. Why does sge constantly run away from her problems

But in any case, I think that bonding over trauma is still a nice way to fall in love and build a future. More valid than sharing the same sexual fetishes.”

That's Fucking rude.. Penn is hurting but she didn't need to stab Scarlett

“It doesn’t have to be forever,” I told him. “But Mei said that—” “Why do I feel like a cheated husband?” I try to keep a straight face. “Because Mrs. Sima has taken up with the landscaper?” “Because my diver came home smelling like another coach!”

Lmaooooo

“Until she feels better, maybe we should pull back. Or focus more on the…physical part of our relationship.”

This would piss me the fuck off immediately.. Girl you did not just say he should fuck her no strings attached like she's a toy and nothing else. She seriously has no self value

More valid than sharing the same sexual—

Her words really cut her

Than sharing the same sexual— I let out a single, pitiful sob.

.. Penn hurt her and implied they step back with her words.. Whether or not she meant it. Penn has to fucking grow up and realize her relationship is over with Lukas and shouldn't expect to just come waltzing back when her first attempt at a relationship doesn't work. She ong never put effort with lukas.. She does not deserve a relationship with lukas anymore than anyone else.. Especially against Scarlett

our new Diving Beasties tattoos on full display.

Lmao at least its temporary

Is it okay if I send you a couple of TiVos? I’m not super happy with my armstand. Mei: I thought you’d never ask.

I love this lol

This is vanilla. We’re both out of control. It’s me and him, suddenly equals.

I love and hate this. Something I cant quite put into eloquent words at the moment..

I l—” He huffs a small, rueful laugh, catching himself.

..

“Don’t worry about it, then. Luk, can I stay with you? Hasan and Kyle won’t care.” I freeze. So does Lukas.

They won't care but we all sure as hell do

When he leaves for his NCAA championship in Georgia, Pen moves back into her apartment, and so do I. We share her small bed, laughing at the way we kick each other during sleep.

Aye georgia! Also why was this not an option before ??? Scarlett staying with penn

Scarlett: Congrats on winning your last race in the US. Lukas: Thank you, Scarlett.

Wow his last win/race in Georgia.. Penn really doesn't know Lukas at all..

The following morning, one day before the competition is due to start, Pen receives an email from Stanford’s athletic director. The initial lab results were a false positive.

Fucking hell they stressing people out for no fucking reason

Pen is behind us, already wet in her suit. “Nothing. Just, this professor we were doing this research—” “You need to go shower, Vandy. It’s about to start.”

... Penn is acting up.. She's Really not being a good friend or even an gracious ex as she was supposed to be

My phone pings with a text. Smile. It’s Mei. She probably meant to send this to someone el— Mei: Watching the live stream, and you need to SMILE. Scarlett: What? Mei: You just won the NCAA.

Ong i love Mei a 1000x more than Penn atp in the book

Another kiss, gentle against my lips. “Scarlett. You’re brilliant. You’re perfect. And I—” An outraged, teary voice swallows the rest of his words. “Are you two for real?”

... PENN GO F OFF AND FIGURE YOUR CRAP OUT. Taking your frustration and anger out on your ex, who you broke up with and his partner of choice, who constantly checked up on your sorry ass is not fuking cute.

I know he heard Victoria’s question,

Oh.. Its not Penn . .

She’s pale, trembling next to Victoria, and zeroes in on me with an expression I can’t decipher, to ask, “Did you just want to be me all along?” Betrayal—that’s the expression. And she stares like I’m the one doing it. To her. “I…what?”

She's a complete bitch ok

“Pen, they are Scarlett’s teammates, too. If you won’t tell them what’s going on, I will.” “What is going on? The boyfriend and the gold medal that were mine a year ago are now hers. That’s what.” Lukas exhales, impatient.

Lukas Fucking wreck her.. Cause i wouldn't hold back.

“But I’m the one who broke up with you! A few months ago, you and I were still in love and now—what, you’re in love with two people now?” “No, I’m not.”

... Penn tf?? You must have fucking dived into concrete cause where is your brain rn

“You just…took everything from me. Thank you, Vandy.” I shake my head. She’s being unfair and irrational, and I know I should be furious at her, but she’s so obviously heartbroken, I can’t find my anger. “I know this is hard to hear, but…neither the title nor Lukas were yours to be taken,” I say softly.

.. Penelope has lost all good graces cause she's being a teenaged brat. I hope she does therapy and puts her shit together without relying on someone else to do it for her.

“You have to stop, Pen.” Lukas’s hand tightens on my shoulder. “She’s your friend, and you’re hurting both of you.” “She was my friend, and—” She points at Lukas with trembling fingers. “I forbid you to fall in love with her.” “Pen. I already have.”

Penn is being an emotional toilet paper roll rn. Cause tf is she actually smoking. NCAA ong should have taken her chance at competing. She on something fr

“Pen is not heartbroken. She’s not in love. This is just possessiveness. She’s lashing out because she lost two of her favorite toys, and she wants someone else to hurt as bad as she does.

Fucking clocked her bullshit

You don’t have to be terrified of it anymore. I love you. I’m in love with you. And you’re in love with me. We can say it.”

.. Somehow doesn't feel like the right moment

I can’t, Scarlett. I can’t be without you. And for the first time in my life, I don’t care. I think of you all the time, and I want to make plans with you, I want to talk about the future, and I’m fucking happy about it—” “Stop.”

. . Scarlett!!!!??? NO NO WHY NOW!?

The noise she makes is so triumphant, I have to move the phone away from my ear. “Scarlett, baby, finally. Mi bank account es su bank account. Within reason.”

LMAO IN LOVE BARB

“Vandy?” When I look up, I find Penelope Ross.

... Penelope is not on my good side and its going to take alot to convince me that she isnt/hasnt been shit since chapter one

“I came here to apologize. What I said was cruel, and false. I stole from you the joy of your first gold medal. I want to make it up to you, but I don’t know how. If you no longer want to be my friend, that’s fair. And if you want to make me work for it, it’s also fair. I will, believe me. If you want to think about it…take your time.” I nod. “Thank you.” My stomach feels buoyant.

This whole chapter was like cold water for penn i guess cause she sobered tf up immediately

“You told him,” I accuse. “I did not,” Jan assures me, placid as usual. “Believe me, I would not get on the bad side of my future sister-in-law this early in the relationship.”

Lmaoo i love jan

“This is so messy.” “Falling in love?” I nod. “And I did it so…” Deeply, desperately, fast. It’s just pure violence. “The ultimate loss of control, huh?” I breathe deeply.

I wonder how falling in love will be for me

Scarlett: I hate bones. Lukas: I hate bones, too. Scarlett: Why do you hate bones? Shouldn’t you hate brains? Lukas: Bones steal you away from me. Brains keep me entertained when you’re gone.

Awwwww

Katten åt, it reads. The cat ate.

Awww they have a cat together and she learning seriously! *¬*

Meow. “I’m not her. I will not be manipulated.” Meoooow. He sighs and opens the treats cupboards.

Real lol

The note reads: Whenever you open this, I’m probably thinking of you.

These epilogue inserts are way too cute

Lukas smiles. “I am familiar, yes.”

Lol they work together !! >¬<

This is Lukas, my best friend’s fiancé,” Pen says. He cannot help a small smile.

Penn has redeemed herself if that's her being completely genuine

“I would throw myself under a bus for Scarlett, though.” He can certainly relate to that.

He would lol

“But…what are we going to do with all that time together?” “I was hoping we’d sleep in. Then go at it like animals. Then maybe a quick break at the pool? Then back home, more animal stuff.” “Oh my god, Lukas. What are we—a couple?” “Let’s not get ahead of ourselves.” A minute later she’s asleep. The entire universe is here, in his arms.

My heart!! T-T they are working out just fine