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“I mean it. You are my crazy sparkle of light, Alexei. No matter how dark it gets, you are always there to brighten my life. If I didn’t have that, I would have given up a long time ago. Your love keeps me alive.”
I am her safe space and I will protect her, even from the demons in her head.
“She’s lucky to have you, Alexei. You know, you don’t have to do this much for her. You have more than repaid your debt to us years ago. You aren’t just her bodyguard.” “It’s more than that. She’s special to me.”
“Oh, you want me?” I tease, twirling a blond curl around my finger. “Want? No. Need, yes. I want you every second of the day.” He winks at me.
“Well, yea, that. I mean keeping quiet. When all I want to do is let every motherfucker in this building hear you’re mine, and how good you ride me in your office like the naughty girl you are.”
“You were meant to be the one begging.”
Because I can’t, and I won’t, live without her.
You were holding me together without even realizing it. You already spent your life protecting me, emotions aren’t your thing, Alexei.”
Other peoples aren’t. Yours, Lara, are more important to me than anything. Actually, yours are the only ones I care about, well, and Sheila’s I suppose.”
“I love you enough to know that I have to go first. I’m not living a single second on this earth without you. So yes, it will be okay, there is no other option. We will get you through this, together. Whatever it takes.”
“You are Lara fucking Volkov. The beauty, the brains and the heart of the family. I have loved you for a long time and I will love you for eternity. I’d love you if you became a flamingo, I’ll love you when you’re gray and wrinkly. I love you even now when you wake up and breathe on my face with your hair piled up on the top of your head. You can’t see you’re perfect, I probably will never truly understand why, but I will spend the rest of my life showing you just how magnificent you are to me. That I promise you.”
“Look at the sunset. It’s so gorgeous. Almost as good as my view,”
“Now you’re going to have me spilling out of you all over my seat as I ride us home. You’re full of me, and that makes you all mine.”
“There isn’t anything you can’t do. You never needed me, not really. You need to let me go, and I need you to be fierce. Be the girl that stole my heart all those years ago, pchelka.”
“Our love isn’t just inevitable, it’s destined. I’m going to need to you fight for us, pchelka. More than anything, look after yourself, fight those demons until I’m back to help you. I need you to be okay while I’m away. Please try for me, baby.”
“I’d never spend a single second away from you if I had a choice. I’d glue you to me if it was safe to do.”
She is everything to me. It would have been pointless even getting me out of that jail if she didn’t survive. I’d die without her. Don’t you get it? There is no me without her. I’m so in love with that woman.”
“You’ll look after each other. I know that. I trust you with her.”
He is now, and will always be, my protector.
“I love you, Lara. I’m so sorry I left you. I thought I was doing the right thing. That this would keep everyone safe. I nearly lost you. How was I ever supposed to live a life without you in it?”
“I was always making my way back to you. I promised, remember.”
“The way I love you means I have to die before you. You can’t go first, Lara. And the way this is going, you will, baby. I vowed to protect you, and if it’s from yourself then I will. This is not how we end.”
“I won’t let you. I swore to protect you, and if that means from yourself, that’s what I’ll do.”
I always ran there to avoid everyone. Except I’ve realized that home isn't a place, not for me. It’s a person. It’s Alexei.
“I won’t let you leave me. You’re mine, Alexei.”
“Because I simply cannot lose you. My world stops spinning when you aren’t there. My fire goes out. I will love you through the hard times, I’ll fight for you when you’re too exhausted to fight for yourself. I’ll take care of you when you need it. I’ll do anything in my power to keep you smiling, because that is what I live for Lara. You. Us. No matter what, it will always be us against whatever battle we come across.”
“I will fight for us, Alexei. I’ll fall with you, I’ll love you every single day. I’ll do whatever it takes to make sure we do life together. Because I live for you, too. And I’m sorry. I’m sorry I lost control, that I hid my battles from you.”
“You’ve been a naughty girl, Lara.”
“I love how your lips feel against mine. So soft and plump.”
“Feel how hard I am. That’s just by looking at you. I have to fight it every second I’m with you, or thinking about you. So every minute of the day, I’m redirecting blood from my cock.”
“All of you. I love it all. I don’t see your imperfections because to me, you have none. You never have. You’ve always been my perfect girl.”
“I’ll kiss away all your fears.” His hand gently cups my pussy. “And fuck away all your bad thoughts.” He smirks.
He makes me feel worthy. Loved. And safe.
I’d wear her as a second skin if I could. I’m that obsessed. I never want her out of my sight.
“That’s so beautiful, Alexei. You have a good eye. It’s perfect for me.” I tug her closer by the waist. “I’m an expert in Lara. I’ve been studying for twenty years, remember? Maybe I could get a certificate.”
I want her to feel powerful. I am weak for her, I always have been.
“I need to be inside you, Lara.” “Hmm, mmm,” I moan around his cock. “Please baby, I’m begging. I’ll do anything. Let me come inside you. I don’t want to come down your throat. I want to fill you up and watch it spill out of you. Then I want to fuck it back inside of you with my fingers. Please. Lara.”
“Whatever your heart desires, baby. The world is yours.”
Can a man say this to me? 😭
I have loved you since the moment I laid eyes on you. No matter what, you are the other half of me. The strongest, the wisest and the most beautiful woman in the universe. There is no Alexei without his pchelka. I can’t wait to do the rest of my life with you as my wife. I am proud of you and I love you more than I can ever explain.
But I love you for everything that you are today, everything you ever have been or will be. Whatever version of you, For eternity, Lara. I bet you look so fucking pretty right now. Now be a good girl and come and marry your man. I’ve waited long enough for this. Let’s do this crazy life thing together, just like I promised you twenty years ago. Love your sladkiy.
He’s made it his life purpose to see me smile. Even when I hated myself, that man dragged me out of my head. On days I didn’t want anyone to speak to me, he made sure I still knew he loved me. That I was worthy of it. He spoke louder than the voices telling me I was useless and ugly. I may never truly be able to see my own beauty, but I’ll always be able to see it in his eyes when he’s looking at me. We truly have always done life together.
“I’m addicted to you more than anything in the world. Candy included.”
“What a perfect wife, crotchless white lace for her husband. Wanted to get eaten out on your wedding day? Hmm?” “Eaten out? I need more than that. Choke me on your cock. Press me up against that glass and rail me. Pull my hair. Spit in my mouth. I want to forget how to breathe when your hand squeezes my throat. Fuck me like you mean it. Fuck me like I’m your filthy little whore.” Seeing his jaw drop, I quickly sit up and gently tap his chin to close it. “And maybe spank me nice and hard for good measure. Mark your wife. Be my caveman and claim ownership over me.”
He knows me better than I know myself.
“I might not have been the one to pop your cherry, but I just made your ass taste like one. I bet no one has ever done that to you before,” I tell her, pulling out the sucker and replacing it with my tongue.
“I’m so fucking needy for you.”
He consumes me. He ignites me. He completes me.
“I need to look you in the eyes as you fall apart for me. And you need to witness just how crazy in love with you I am, as I claim your sweet cunt.”
And this is it. My entire life in one man. The one who sees me for who I am. Who doesn’t try to fix me. He accepts me for all of my broken and cherishes every part of me. The man who made me believe something seemingly impossible… I am worthy of the love that I crave.
