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“Because you belong to me. I take pride in making my toy happy.”
U had to ruin it huh
I have no reason to lie to you, Lillith. My sole purpose this entire time has been to protect you. Lying would only serve to harm you.”
How can she even ask that? Why her? She’s fucking everything. So sweet, brilliant, wonderful, effervescent. She’s everything I’m not, and then some. And she has the gall to ask me why?
Her fingers touch the edge of my mask, and before I can stop her, she pries the metal contraption away, revealing the horror that is my face. She presses up on her toes, and in a blink, her lips press against the side of my face—the scarred side.
A smile tips her pretty pink lips. “Are you trying to make a joke?” I don’t know. Would you laugh if I was? “Maybe.” She throws her head back, and the most joyous sound I’ve ever heard echoes in the clearing. Like sunlight shining down on a field of blooming magnolia trees.
Her teeth flash in a genuine smile, and my heart stutters. You’re so beautiful, Lillith. I don’t know why the gods blessed the earth with you, but they should be thanked.
“Can we?” she asks, her eyes bright. I could never deny you anything that makes you smile like that. “Yes,”
“Got you!” She cackles, pushing off me and putting a few feet of space between us. Yes, my goddess, you do.
I rest my forehead against hers but don’t lean in for a kiss. Not yet. Not until she’s ready. Her breath hitches, and she finally, finally, finally presses her lips to mine. I thought the stolen kiss from the first night was earth-ending, but now I know I was wrong. So wrong.
A part of me longs for him to take me like he did that day, for him to break and touch me like I’m something… something precious. I always thought the romance books lied about that spark, about the dragons that roar to life in your belly when he’s near. I was wrong.
“They said the tendons in her heart ruptured. A medical anomaly is what the doctors called it. A tragic, unfortunate loss of life. A fluke.” But it wasn’t a fluke, was it? I can’t breathe, can’t look away from that steely look in his eye. “A broken heart. She died of a broken heart,”
I hate how I lose all control when she’s around. With the state of my body, my mind is the one thing I’ve come to count on through the years. But as soon as I see her, smell her… I just can’t help myself. She’s all I can think about, all I want to think about. If I could, I’d crawl in her fucking skin and live there.
Lord only knows what she’ll bring home one day. What she’ll let the kids bring home. The last thought has me stopping in my tracks. I haven’t ever considered having children. Not with the work I do and certainly not with my… proclivities. But Lillith is so good, so gentle and kind. Maybe she can cancel out some of my wretchedness. Maybe…
“Huh. And here I was thinking you were someone important.” “Yeah? Fuck you.” I grumble, turning to watch a fly that just landed on the chair's arm. “I’m getting really tired of the sound of your voice.” “Likewise, friend.” “Shut the fuck up.” I roll my eyes. “We’re not fucking friends.”
Oh hey ghost
“You think you’re so tough. We’ll see how well you roll your fucking eyes when you don’t have any.” Fisting my hair in his fingers, he forces my head back and fires up the torch. I can feel the heat from the flame grow more intense as he slowly inches it toward my face. No, not my face—my right eye.
Welp
I want to be held so tightly that I break. I need to feel what it’s like to be put back together, piece by shattered piece. And I know my captor is the only one capable of doing that.
“What’s wrong?” he mocks, still trying to catch his breath. “Some bitch turned down your ugly ass again?”
Welp rip Wes
“Put the gun down, Kain.” John claps a hand on my shoulder. I wheel around, keeping my finger locked in position as I turn it on him. “Make me,” I hiss, waggling it between his eyes. “Or are you not the brutal man you’re so desperate for everyone to see you as?”
Bestie…u wanna get kicked out or sum
She’s so close, yet still so far from my reach, and it’s driving me fucking insane. I need her. Even if it’s just to hold her against me and feel her pulse beating beneath my palms. I have to know she’s real, that she’s finally mine.
“You tried to leave,” he deadpans, a starved look in the eye he trails over my naked torso. “I hate when you do that.”
Jeffrey dahmer??
“You’re so perfect, my little flower. Let me make you feel good. Let me worship you.”
“I’m not going to take you until you’re wearing my mark. Right here.” I pinch the spot at the top of her hip. “Do you understand now, Lillith? I’m not going to fuck you until you let me degrade you. To brand you as mine.”
Oh…
“I’m yours, Kain. All yours.” I freeze, closing my eye against the sight of her beautiful body. I never thought something as simple as words could make me come undone.
“Kain,” she whines, uselessly bucking her hips. “I can’t come again.” “Shut the fuck up and let me eat your pussy,” I growl, pulling her impossibly closer to me. “I waited way too fucking long. I’m going to enjoy you.”
Why did this make me lol
Suddenly, her legs go slack, her knees falling open and hitting the dirt with a soft thud. It takes me less than a second before I’m up by her head, cradling her fragile little body to my chest. Shit. I shouldn’t have gone so hard. “Little flower?” I whisper, nuzzling the tip of my nose against hers. “You awake?” “Mmm.” A little moan slips past her parted lips, and I heave a great sigh. She’s okay. She just passed out.
I lost my fucking mind when I saw her there in the forest, all naked, bloody and helpless. I just couldn’t help it. I had to have her.
“You are unspeakably beautiful, little flower,”
She pulls away, but I grab her wrist and hold her there. “Please don’t stop. It feels… nice,” I murmur, loosening my grip as she resumes her exploration. While she’s distracted, I lather the soap on the washcloth and raise it to her temple, dabbing away the dried blood and dirt. Her fingers trail over my permanent smile line, and she gasps as she realizes just how deep I was cut. “Are you sure I’m not hurting you?” I shake my head, a chuckle building in my chest. “Lillith, you’re saving me.”
His hand reaches for my chin, and that’s when I notice his knuckles. I snatch his hand in mine, my earlier embarrassment forgotten as I inspect the wound. “What happened?” I run my fingertip gently across the broken skin, careful not to irritate it further. “Did you get in a fight?” Kain cocks his head, watching my face as I turn his wrist over and palpate the area for fractures. “Why are you doing that?” “Doing what?” “Taking care of me.”
It’s like I can finally breathe, like I’ve been living in hellish shades of gray my whole life and never knew it. He’s made me come undone, sent my world spiraling into the most magnificent kaleidoscope of color. Now that I know what it feels like, I never want to return. All I want, all I need is to be here with Kain.
“Tell me to stop, Lillith,” he groans, pulling back abruptly. “I can’t fucking control myself any longer. I need you to do it.”
“I don’t like when you cover yourself,” he whispers, cupping my breast with his palm. “I need to be able to see every inch of you. How else can I worship this beautiful fucking body?”
“How does it feel?” “Like I’ve just been branded.”
Likeee fym
I kiss her shoulder, up her neck, and along her profile, giving her something to let her know she’s cared for. Safe.
Right before I drift off, my phone buzzes from the nightstand, but one look at Lillith’s peaceful, sleeping face, and I turn it off. Whatever it is, it can wait. I hope.
Well no-
It’s cute. As long as I don’t think about the meaning behind it and the monster I’ve willingly tied myself to… it’s cute.
💀💀
Ahhh. Precious bean water. “I’m sorry, what?” “Huh?” I jerk my eyes up, utterly surprised at what seems to be a genuine smile tugging at his mouth. “Did I say something?” “Yes.” He cocks his head. “Bean water?” My face heats the longer he stares at me. “I really thought I said that in my head.” “So it seems. I like it. It’s… catchy.” His lips part, showcasing a row of perfectly straight white teeth. The sight catches me off guard, and it occurs to me that I’ve never actually seen him smile before. “What’s that look for?” “Who, me? Nothing,”
They cuteee idk🤭
“I was just thinking how I’ve never seen you smile,” I rush to explain. “I like it. It’s… nice.” Kain cocks his head. “I didn’t realize I had. You bring out all sorts of interesting emotions in me, Lillith.”
“You always smell so delicious, little flower,” he coos, his earlier temper nowhere to be seen. “So sweet. So innocent.”
“Does it really mean that much to you?” “Yes,” I say, my heart breaking at the thought of the little mouse stuck in the trap. Without a word, Kain takes the trap from my hands and disappears into the bedroom. I stand in the kitchen, wringing my hands together. A few minutes later, Kain reappears in the kitchen with a small plastic tub. There appears to be a towel at the bottom, and as he nears me, I can make out the shape of the mouse nestled in the makeshift bed. He places the tub on the counter, then continues cooking like nothing happened.
See- sigh
“You promise you won’t try to run away?” “I promise,” I whisper, stepping into his chest. His arms fold around me, and I sigh, listening to the powerful thud of his heart. Truthfully, I don’t even know if I want to leave anymore. I was drowning before, going through the motions in hopes that I would eventually find some meaning in my life. Now that I’m here, in his arms, I’m starting to think this is what I was missing all along. Who I was missing.
She doesn’t belong in a place like this. She’s too good, too perfect. Too everything.
I like to have you where I can see you at all times. That way, I can always protect you.”
If it was anything else, I would have blown it off. But I won’t sit back and let Onyx destroy the club. Merging with the Serpents is a surefire way to make sure that happens.
Ngl bestie it didn’t seem like u cared that much before
“Come here.” I hook my fingers under the space in her collar and give her a little tug. Her pupils blow, and I have to remind myself how much the club means to me. It’s the only thing that stops me from taking her right here. Tearing my gaze from her, I yank on the brass handle and usher her inside, keeping my chest pressed to her like an overprotective guard dog. Placing my palms on either side of her waist, I guide her up to the bar, sensing the eyes of one too many slobbering bikers trained on my precious flower.
Now if I speak-
“My name’s Lillith. I’m… Kain’s.”
Why did I lol😭
“You’re better off leaving her with me.” “Choke and die,” I snarl, pulling her impossibly deeper into my chest. “I’m not letting her out of my sight. Especially not with you.”
That’s so wild to say to ur bestie😭
I turn my gaze to Lillith, spinning her in my arms so we’re heart to heart. Cupping her cheek, I gently guide her lips up to mine. She’s just as sweet as she always is. “So fucking delicious,” I moan, pulling away so I can take in her expression. “You gonna be okay if I leave you with Bear, little flower?” At her look of hesitancy, I add, “He’s the only person in this world I trust with my life. He’ll keep you safe.” “Okay,” she whispers, pressing up on her tiptoes to give me one last peck.
Y’all-
“If I come back and someone has so much as breathed on her—”
LMAO
“What’s your name, beautiful?” “Lillith,” I murmur, and a strange warmth builds in my core at the way she’s looking at me.
💅🏾? I feel u
