Where All Light Tends to Go

by David Joy

I’d let what I was born into control what I’d become.

She loved me too much to let me go and I loved her too much to drag her down. That type of love doesn’t work.

Blood’s thicker than water, and I was drowning in it. I was sinking down in that blood, and once I hit bottom, no one would find me.

There’re some souls that even the devil wants no part of.

There was a part of me that understood that with that hardness came an inability to ever let anyone worth having get close enough to love.

When we were together it seemed like everything else, all the bad shit that surrounded us, stopped and we were all right for a moment or two. It was never a thing that felt like forever, but sometimes all a person needs is a chance to catch their breath.

Knowing only darkness, a man doesn’t have to get his heart broken in search of the light. I envied him for that.