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'Long time no see'
JEEZ DOES ANYONE STILL SAY THAT???
They were different kinds of heartless and Neil, for all his problems connecting with other people, didn't want to be a monster.
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As he listened to them, Neil realized he was happy. It was such an unexpected and unfamiliar feeling he lost track of the conversation for a minute.
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so he wanted to hold tight to what was left. His teammates had other ideas, however, which was how Neil wound up shopping for clothes on Tuesday.
Finally
"Your ignorance is endearing, Neil. You're nineteen and you've never looked at Allison's tits? There's no way you're straight.
He knowsse
"Stop being a bad influence," Kevin told Nicky. "I am going to make him Court. It'll be easier if he remains heterosexual. You know more than any of us how prejudiced people can be. Imagine the impact it would have on his career."
Good point, but also fuck you. Let him kiss Andrew dammnit
A few seconds later Andrew's phone started to ring. Neil expected a generic ringtone, but a man started singing. It didn't sound like something Andrew would assign to his phone until Neil listened to the lyrics. It was a song about runaways.
Awwwwwwww🥺🥺🥺
"Are we doing the honesty thing again?" "Do we need to?"
Cuteee
"Your parents are dead, you are not fine, and nothing is going to be okay," Andrew said. "This is not news to you. But from now until May you are still Neil Josten and I am still the man who said he would keep you alive.
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Andrew had already filled out his contacts list. He'd even set a couple speed dials. Andrew was first,
I meannnnn, just tell him you lovenhim alreadyyyy
"A contract does not change facts," Jean said. "Did you forget who bought you?" "Bought me," Neil repeated. "Nobody bought me." Kevin frowned, lost. "Jean, what are you talking about?"
Oh fuck...
"Riko will have a few minutes of your time later," Jean said. "I suggest you speak with him if you do not want everyone to know you are the Butcher's son."
SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT
Kevin hesitated. "Does Andrew know?" "He knows only pieces of it," Neil said. "He doesn't know my name." "Does he know who you are?" "I said no." Neil wrenched Kevin's hand off his face. "We're not doing this here."
WHAT DOEA KEVIN'S REACTION MEAN.?????? DOES HE MISS HIM?????
Coach Tetsuji Moriyama
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"Nathaniel, it has been so long."
THATS HIS NAME??????? WELL NO FUCKING WONDER RIKO FIGURED IT OUT
"You want to tell me why you have a hard-on for antagonizing Riko?"
I meannnn, anybody would. Come on
When Matt talked about summer breaks spent drag racing in the mountains Neil remembered the sound his mother's corpse made when he tried peeling it off a vinyl seat.
DUDE, GET FUCKING THERAPY
In this world she's got her eyes set on Andrew.
Excuse me..... ANDREW BELONGS WITH NEIL! THANK YOU
Neil thought about Renee's bruised knuckles, Dan's fierce spirit, and Allison holding her ground on the court a week after Seth's death. He thought about his mother standing unflinching in the face of his father's violent anger and her ruthlessly leaving bodies in their wake. He felt compelled to say, "Some of the strongest people I've known are women."
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Andrew, though, nodded in the face of it and told Neil to stay. He stood his ground when Neil asked him for murder and gave him a key to their house. But that didn't count, because Andrew was Andrew, and this was definitely the last turn he needed his thoughts to take. He dragged his attention back to the task at hand and vowed never to listen to Nicky again.
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October
ALREADY???
The game was only six days away.
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Neil stared at him. "Five points?"
Lucky Number!!!
"Number ten, Neil Josten," the announcer said.
LETS GOOOOOOOO
Neil
Lets fuckingngoooiiioi ihahahshshsbsbdbehd
"Have you seen me?" printed beneath it. "Oh, that's perfect, Neil," Andrew
😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣
When Neil started to argue, Andrew hooked a finger under his chin and forced his mouth closed again with an easy jerk of his hand.
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"How the hell did you talk Andrew into this?" Dan asked, staring at Neil. "I asked," Neil said. "And he agreed just like that?" Matt asked, skeptical.
Neil can be very persuasive when it comes to Andrewwwwe
"What about Renee?" "What about her?" "She's not interesting?" "She's useful." "That's it?" "You expected a different answer?" "Maybe,"
THIS IS YOUR SHOT MAN, RENEE IS A NO GO
"I'm not Andrew's type, Neil. There's nothing between us."
Thats right!!! Andrew is super gayyyy
"When I said I wasn't Andrew's type, I meant it. It's not about my looks or faith. It's that I'm a woman."
LETS FHCKJNG GO WE H AVE ANOTHER HOMOSEXUALLLLLLLLL
RELEASE THE PRIDE FLAGSSSSS
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"Oh, no. You'll meet Kevin's girlfriend later this year, I'm sure."
FUCK YESSSSS
ANDREW'S ALL YOURS NEILLL!!!!!!
"He said it was a misunderstanding."
I think i know what theyre talking about but not sureee
"That's why you're so interesting," Andrew said. "How aggravating." He sounded amused, not annoyed, so Neil said, "I'll try to be more boring in the future." "How considerate."
O MG THEYRE FLIRTTINGGGG
Andrew laughed. "I'm remembering why I don't like you." "I'm surprised you forgot."
Callbackkj
He withdrew completely, leaving just the memory of his heartbeat against Neil's mouth, and spun away.
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The weighted vest provided by Exites went over his clothes and reminded him a little of the Kevlar vest his mother gave him in Europe.
Yet another mommy issues moment
"When will you accept that it is wrong?" Luther asked. "Homosexuality is—"
Omg, fuck youuuuuu😡😡😡😡😡
long. He'll come back when he's finished speaking with Drake."
HHEHEEHHHHH???????????? O H FUCK A BITCH IS BOUT TO DIE TONIGHT
Drake.
I want to fuckingnkill him
Neil waited, but Andrew didn't let go. With so many people watching them Neil couldn't lift his shirt. He did the next best thing and dragged one of Andrew's hands under the hem. He pressed Andrew's palm to the ugly scarring across his abdomen.
I wanna cry
"Are you at all sorry?" Neil asked. "You took his family away from him." If looks could kill, the one Aaron shot Neil should have flayed the skin from his bones. "That man was not his family."
Karma
As soon as he started for her, Katelyn ran down the hall to meet him. She threw her arms around him and pulled him close. Aaron held onto her like she was the only thing keeping him upright and let her pull his face into her shoulder.
Damnit theyre so cute
She wasn't the first to say that, but Neil wondered if Andrew's opinion of him would change when he was off his medication.
Yes, stay true to your mans
"I am King," Riko agreed, "and you are going to spend Christmas at my castle. You're coming to Evermore for winter break. Don't,"
HEHHHHH??? WHAT FOR???
A jumble of lies had nothing to fight for. But Neil Josten was a Fox. Andrew called this home; Nicky called him family. Neil wasn't going to lose any of it. If two weeks with Riko was the price to keep his team safe, Neil would pay it.
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"I said family, you hard-of-hearing imbecile," Jean said. "His father. Your coach." It took a moment to sink in. When it clicked Neil recoiled from Jean in shock. "What?"
Your fucking with me right??????
