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“It wasn’t until this very moment that I realized I deserve so much more. To think I was open to exploring shit with you. Now I know better.”
“Baby, you couldn’t handle me. I’ll have you somewhere in a corner sucking your thumb wondering where you went wrong. Your best bet is to keep you and ya lil dick away from me.”
“Game recognize game, baby. I could see it in your eyes the moment you stepped into my sister’s apartment. A man in heat is my favorite smell.” I licked my lips. “You nasty as hell, ain’t you?”
am so much more than the good pussy between my legs. Somebody will appreciate that.”
Crying over a nigga made me feel like a weak bitch, and I was anything but that.
willingly gave him all the ammunition because our chemistry was so fire and natural. Now it was blowing up in my face.
“After all that shit, they deserve it. That right there is pure, unconditional love. Must be nice.”
These are the types of games you wanna play? Fine. You forget that I’m a player too, baby. But when I play, you’re gonna feel that shit in your fucking chest. I promise you that.”
“I don’t want that anymore! I want to be loved, not that toxic shit! I don’t want to be some man’s concubine for the rest of my life. I don’t wanna settle for being good enough to fuck but not good enough to make someone’s woman. And I don’t want to be somebody’s baby
mama. I’ve changed, Walker. As easy as it would be to fall back into that toxic shit, my head ain’t it, and I won’t continue to leave my heart with you.”
“You better stop playing games before you’re the one crying in a corner.”
Carmella and Carina Jareau were absolutely beautiful.
After having this taken away three different times, I just… I just wanna sit and stare at them all day long. They are my perfect labor of unconditional love.”
“You shouldn’t. You deserve your heart’s desires too. If you know he can’t give you that, you shouldn’t settle for what you can get from him. I will say, I feel like you two should have a heart to heart and get it all out so you can both move on.”
“I think that responsibility falls on the ain’t shit individual and the person ignoring the signs. Sometimes, things are right in our face, and we choose to ignore the red flags. We have this version in our heads of who we want people to be.”
“Tell me I can come home, Ja. I just wanna come home, baby.”
This was that demon dick. Dick so good it would have a bitch retracting
her words and betraying her morals; dick so good that even when I was mad at him, my pussy always got wet for him; dick so good that even while I hated him and myself for allowing it to get this far, I still threw my ass back at him.
She betrayed me like the triflin’ bitch she was.
I was allowing him to have me without any commitment. We weren’t even friends right now. We were nothing but two people seemingly trapped in an entanglement we didn’t need to be in.
“What I’m saying is, be the man she wants by becoming the man she needs. Be honest with that girl. No man is gonna chase a woman for months if he doesn’t love her. Pussy is powerful, but it ain’t that powerful. You love her, don’t you?” “I… I love her. I’m in love with her.”
That’s my baby girl. I look at her, Liv, and Adina just like I look at your sister. You fucking with my baby, and I don’t like that shit. Get your shit together, Walker. If you can’t appreciate her and do right, leave her alone. Don’t be surprised when someone that’s willing to step up to the plate claims the woman you thought was only for you.”
“Jorja, I love you.” Her eyes widened. “I’ve never said that to any woman I’ve been with, but that’s what I feel for you. I’m sorry it took me so long to see that. My world ain’t right without you, Ja. I miss you, and I miss us. I don’t want you to move on, and I can’t move on. I want to come home.”
“Good. Listen to this, son. Women are not obligated to wait until you are ready to commit to them. You don’t get to be mad when they find someone willing to give them everything they wanted with you. Take a good look at her, baby.”
“If you cared the way you said you do, you wouldn’t put her in a position to have any other man comforting your woman the way you’re supposed to. You wouldn’t be sitting here looking like you’re ready to cry either.”
sniffed as I sat blinking back tears. “I messed up, Ma. She doesn’t even want to be friends. I can deal with her not wanting to sleep with me. But she’s acting like she never meant anything to me at all, and that’s not true. I just told that woman I love her, and she walked away from me.”
Time is precious, you know? We’re given life, but we never know how much of it. I didn’t make the most of the time I had with the people that meant the world to me, and I’ll always regret that.”
What I needed in this moment was right in front of me.
“Stick with me, love. I can show you everything you’ve been missing.”
that kiss was sexy as hell.
want you to be happy with whoever gives you what you need, whether it turns out to be Walker or that handsome gentleman waiting for you.”
wear my heart on my sleeve, and I don’t wanna put myself out there if you have even the slightest of doubts.”
“I want to be loved.” I paused for a moment, preparing to tell my truth. “I haven’t had the best track record with men, starting with my father. I dated in high school, but it was never anything serious. As an adult, I haven’t had a serious relationship. I’ve treated most men like most of them treat women, as an object.”
“I want to feel secure. Not financially because I can take care of myself. I mean I want to feel physically, emotionally, and mentally secure with him. I want a man that knows my weaknesses and doesn’t use them against me; a man that says what he means and means what he says, but he also puts action behind that shit. I don’t wanna have to wonder or second guess his motive and intentions.”
For a moment, it gave serial killer vibes. A house hidden from the street gave the perfect setup to drag a bitch’s body into the car without being seen. I’d seen way too many horror and mystery movies and shows. I shook the thoughts off as I climbed out of my car and headed up the front steps. Ringing the doorbell, I waited for him to answer. He answered a few seconds later, greeting me with
Let me be real with you about something. There is nothing you can say to her about
me, that won’t make it worse for you. It doesn’t matter if it’s true or not. Nothing that comes out of your mouth will be taken seriously by her. Thank you for that. You should just bow out while you’re ahead.”
It’s just the way you two were with each other. You can say what you want, but I know that man loves you.”
me or want to show any interest in wanting that. You know what he told
“I know I’ve apologized a million times for the way things went, and you don’t want to hear that, so I won’t say it. I do want to apologize for my recent behavior. The night I came over… what we did… that wasn’t my intention. I honestly just wanted to talk to you. I was vulnerable. You were vulnerable, and I feel like I took advantage of that. I feel like I took advantage of you, and that’s been haunting me, Ja.”
“I never want to hurt you. I never want you to feel like I took something from you. That whole experience made me feel like I violated you—”
“You deserve to be loved, and I’m sorry that I couldn’t give that to you when you wanted it from me.”
No man has ever loved me like that. I never thought I’d desire to be loved like that, but I do. And I deserve it without one day wondering if this is the day you decide you don’t really want me.”
want you, Jorja,” he said, cupping my face. “I’ve been chasing you for months, baby.”
“I love you, and I’m in love with you. I love you enough to let you find what you deserve. But that nigga you are entertaining… he ain’t it.”
“Life has a way of humbling you,” Rhyon said, chuckling. “We changed. We took the time to learn ourselves, to grow.”
I don’t want you to go out like that. I’ll deal with you hating me before I let you move on with a nigga that may not have the best intentions for you. Maybe I didn’t give you the best of me, but you deserve the best of somebody.”
want you, Ja. I want you bad as fuck, but I know what it’s like to be on the receiving end of your unforgiveness. I’m not trying to feel that shit again.”
“Yeah, well… everything that looks and sounds good isn’t good. You remember that when these boys start whispering in your ear, baby girl.” I kissed her forehead. “Go on.”
“Niggas like you are exactly why women complain about not being able to find good men. I opened up to you. I shared my feelings with you, and baby, I don’t do that. For you to tell Walker thank you for giving you the upper hand lets me know you never actually gave a fuck about me. All of the wining and dining, all the time we spent together… all of that was
