Revelry in Buddy Read Zone

Aug 13, 2013 M. rated it it was amazing

Shelves: favorites, emotionally-draining, heartbreakingly-beautiful, yes-i-cried, fanfiction

It's a fucked up feeling to love someone so fucking much that you let them fuck with your head in order to save theirs.

I live for her and I love for her, breathe for her. I die slowly every single fucking day for her.

She has all of me. Every single bit of me.

There are very few stories that will reach in and touch your heart, consume your mind and leave you feeling empty and overcome with emotion all at the same time. Revelry is one of those stories. It is the most intense book I have

It's a fucked up feeling to love someone so fucking much that you let them fuck with your head in order to save theirs.

I live for her and I love for her, breathe for her. I die slowly every single fucking day for her.

She has all of me. Every single bit of me.

There are very few stories that will reach in and touch your heart, consume your mind and leave you feeling empty and overcome with emotion all at the same time. Revelry is one of those stories. It is the most intense book I have ever read. It's fucked up, messed up, ugly, emotional, intense and most of all, it's real. It left me feeling like I had lived through all of it. It filled me with emotions so strong that I thought I couldn't handle it. I'm kind of broken after finishing.

I think a warning is in order here. If you are easily offended by cutting, heavy drug use, and profound angst, then this story is not for you. If you have a problem with rough sex, drug use, crude language, cutting, death, or stepmoms fucking their stepsons, move on. Please take this warning seriously, because Revelry really is not for everyone. The characters are so complex, not everyone will be able to understand them and the mistakes that they make. This is not your typical love story.

There is not a lot of good that comes from Edward and I being together, but there is love... indisputable, prevailing, gut-wrenching love that helps heal the hurt.

Revelry starts with a very intense and fucked up relationship between Edward and Bella. There's no easy introduction or explanation. You're just thrown in the middle of fucked up.

Bella keeps everyone on their toes, no one fucks with her. She is the pretty girl who will curb your head if you fuck with her.

Bella comes off as domineering, jealous, bitchy, attention-seeking, insecure, possessive and crazy. Bella is a cutter. She cuts for his attention. She cuts to escape her pain.

She is trapped inside of her skin so she cuts her way out.

Bella's character is very complicated and interesting. On the outside she's a badass, but on the inside she's hurting. She's lost, insecure and afraid of being abandoned. She's just as destructive as she is healing. She walks around with a hard attitude, but it's a front. She's sad and she is holding onto Edward for her own sanity.

Bella has the ability to move mountains, stronger than she gives herself credit for. She's too pretty to be sad all of the time, too precious to be cutting the hurt out of her skin.

Edward brings out the best and the worst in Bella. He loves her with all he has, but somehow it doesn't seem to get through to Bella that he's with her forever. She uses her cutting as a weapon, as a tool, to manipulate Edward and keep him with her. A tool she doesn't need. I felt the most for Edward in this book. Dealing with a girl like Bella is a damn hard thing to do. Loving someone who hurts herself is one of the most painful things. The cutter numbs her own pain, but inflicts pain on someone else instead.

Edward was destined for greatness. He is just that type of person. Special. He is beautiful, mysteriously curious, complicated and smart. Edward has a way with words and making a person feel important. (...) He is talented, writes music and plays the piano and the guitar. (...) I am most definitely the weight that holds him back.

Edward loves her too much to walk away and he couldn't leave her even if he wanted to. Instead Edward finds another way to deal with the pain she inflicts upon him.

I have found a way to deal. There is a way that I can let you live and I will survive.

The first time he snorts cocaine he realizes that it makes him stronger and numbs him to Bella's manipulations.

The world is mine... ice in my veins, blood in my eyes, hate in my heart, love in my mind.

Slowly Edward gets addicted to cocaine while Bella stops cutting for attention and starts cutting to numb the pain.

Our sins might be different but both are equally as deadly. A cut for a line... an addict for an enabler.

As they grow older, shit becomes more serious and their lives become more derailed. Bella realizes she has ruined Edward. She realizes her love is a life taker. I think around 30-40% a shift happens in their relationship and their roles get reversed. Bella kind of matures and tries to hold it all together while Edward is the one losing control. Edward wasn't strong enough to help Bella and not lose himself in the process.

I got dirty rolling around in dirt.

But what I love about Mary Elizabeth's stories is that there is never one person to blame and there's never one reason to why the things happened the way that they did. You can't point your finger at what went wrong and why. You can try and dissect to find where things went wrong, but you can't. It's easy to just blame Bella or just blame Edward, but things are never that easy.

"You're diamons and guns... You're hard, beautiful, indestructible, invaluable, precious, like a diamond. You're a gun because you can be so fucking cold... You are risky, sexy and you can kill us with a pull of a trigger."

"I think you're the gun, baby girl."

Bella, Edward and Jasper were the perfect examples of how teenagers end up fucking up their lives. Those kids had so much potential, but all three chose the wrong tools to deal with hardships and pain. Life is what you make it and they made it plain miserable.

We were three desperados screaming at the world that we didn't give a fuck. I'm still trying to figure out what we didn't give a fuck about.

Reading and witnessing this story was just painful. Jasper was a side-character that felt more like a main-character. He is Edward and Bella's best friend. Loyal to the bone. Funny as hell. Jasper was able to lighten up the worst situation. Jasper made me laugh through my tears when I thought it'd be impossible. He was probably hurting the most, but he completed and perfected this story. The three of them were like one. They loved each other more than anything, but were forced to watch each other's lives being thrown away. Even though Edward and Bella were destructive and hurt each other, without each other they were even worse off.

In the end, being together is what we are addicted to most of all.

What it comes down to in the end, after the revelry, is picking up the pieces of the life you threw away.

Tough times don't last, but tough people do.

This story hit me in a way that I can't explain. It was all so real, so intense, so complex and so emotional. Good times and bad times. Happiness and hurt. Laughter and tears. Pleasure and pain. My emotions are all mixed up and I'm spent. I haven't stopped thinking about it since I finished.

Bella and I are forever. She's the best part of me. Nothing will change that. Fucked up or sober, she is it.

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Aug 29, 2013 Ashleigh rated it it was amazing

It's a f*cked up feeling to love someone so f*cking much that you let them f*ck with your head in order to save theirs."

Wow this book was the most intense book I think i have ever read, it was not easy to read it messed with my emotions the entire time. This book is Bella and Edward who meet and fall in love almost instanly. This love turned into an obsession for the both of them. They both loved and obsessed with each other. They do drugs in the beginning just for fun but eventually it turns in ...more

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Sep 12, 2013 Dame Sunday rated it really liked it

Well this was very good!! Mary Elizabeth has a way with writing like you're really there. It was a very emotional story. Very dark. I think I'll be staying away from her stories for awhile though hahaha off to find the light now haha ...more

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Aug 22, 2013 Mollie rated it really liked it

I shouldn't rate this yet. I should let it sink in. I'm so emotionally exhausted and I can't think about anything else. It wasn't until halfway that I was 5 star-crazy-hooked. Maybe the angst was too much in the beginning? Maybe I shielded myself from it and wouldn't allow it to grab me? Maybe I need to read it again? I'd love to. I have no problem with dark & disturbing reads.

The writing...oh man, it was beautiful and cryptic. I was laughing when I should've been crying, crying when I should've ...more

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Aug 22, 2013 Caroline rated it really liked it

I liked this book, not as much as I loved Dusty. I felt this was a little repetitive at times. It probably could have been a little shorter but overall a great, intense read.

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Sep 09, 2013 Jessica rated it it was amazing

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I am pages away from finishing this book but I couldn't wait any longer to say something about it. I am floored at the passion and emotion that this book emits. I can't even comprehend everything behind the addictions in this book. I was so drawn in that at times I needed to stop to breath. This author is a true story teller from the heart... someone who truly understands the human condition and who writes from honesty. I am 100% floored at her writing style and am sooo in aww of how well she de ...more

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Sep 03, 2013 Erin rated it it was amazing

Shelves: 5-star-reads, fan-fic, buddy-reads

Revelry was one of the most intense books I have ever read! It was such a nice change of pace from all of the formula books I am used to reading. I know it is fan fiction so the author is able to take a lot more liberties, but still, the writing and the story itself were incredible. The author warns you in the beginning that it contains A LOT of explicit and hard core material, so let's just say you are warned!

Bella and Edward are both from well to do families. They are those typical teenagers t Revelry was one of the most intense books I have ever read! It was such a nice change of pace from all of the formula books I am used to reading. I know it is fan fiction so the author is able to take a lot more liberties, but still, the writing and the story itself were incredible. The author warns you in the beginning that it contains A LOT of explicit and hard core material, so let's just say you are warned!

Bella and Edward are both from well to do families. They are those typical teenagers that are given a little too much freedom and in freedom most people, especially teenagers, find sin. They do drugs, mainly pot in the beginning, and have a lot of sex. They are completely and totally in love. Bella is extremely insecure and emotionally unstable. She basically manipulates Edward by cutting herself when she feels jealous or when he is upset with her. This obviously takes an emotional toll on Edward. He feels helpless when the girl he loves hurts herself. Bella knows how it affects Edward, but continues to do it anyway.

Bella and Edward have a very best friend named Jasper. He completes their tripod. They both do not know what they would do without him. Jasper has emotional problems of his own stemming from the death of his mother, and eventually he starts to do cocaine as a way to deal. At first, Edward wants no part of it, but eventually Edward gives in and starts doing cocaine as a way to numb himself to Bella's manipulations.

Eventually Edward's cocaine use to numb himself becomes an addiction and in order to deal with it Bella stops cutting to manipulate and starts cutting to numb the pain of Edward slowly slipping away from her.

Bella, Edward, and Jasper are their own worst enemies. They cope with their problems and issues in all the wrong ways. I loved this story bc I felt the love and passion between Edward and Bella. They were so in love with one another it just about kills them and I completely understood it. I felt what they felt. Mary Elizabeth is that great of a writer. I felt everything Jasper felt too. The pain from losing his mother, the self doubt and hatred. I loved all 3 of these characters so much. Mary Elizabeth makes sure of that with her beautiful words and outstanding character development.

This book made me laugh, cry, shocked the hell out of me, and made me feel just about every other emotion along the way. I highly recommend it!! ...more

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