B.L.’s Comments (group member since Jan 23, 2013)

B.L.’s comments from the A Wild in Colbie-All grown up group.

Ravenxrose wrote: "Is Sage accepted?"

Yes she is x

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Devyn wrote: "Name: Acton Cole Alexander
Nickname: Ace, he doesn't use his real name.

Age: 22

Sexuality: Straight

Appearance:



Background: Ace was born in Colbie and knows everything about this town...."

Accepted x

Devyn wrote: "Can Ace have a house?"

yeah i'll make it now x ;)

Jace still has his eyes shut tightly, the stupid pain is too much for him. He's a teenage boy, things shouldn't be this complicated. Jace finally opens his eyes to see Kas and he winces "Kas.....I think......I should go now, if you haven't broken it then there's not much a doctor can do. But I'll stay if you want me to......" Jace bites his lip harshly unsure of what else to say. He feels like an idiot already.

Jace's silver eyes flash, the intensity of his gaze fixed on Kasper. Jace is still holding onto Kaspers injured hand, he strokes along Kas's wrist gently wishing he could find the right words, that he could feel differently. Jace's heart pounds as he says "Making me feel like..... it hurts so much Kas, you just don't...understand how...". Kas lets go of Kasper's hand then and stands up abruptly, he walks out of the waiting room and back outside. He leans against the wall, breathing hard, Jace closes his eyes tight.

Jace's breath hitches as Kasper touches him so gently, Jace closes his eyes tightly, trying to control his breathing before opening them again. Jace equally loves and hates the way he feels, it's so confusing, "We've always been best mates. You've stuck with me no matter what, we both have. I'd never want to lose you. But you need to stop doing that" he says carefully trying to find the right words.

Jace looks up into Kasper's face and regards him seriously for a moment, "well I dont think its broken. But I....I understand why you were angry with....what I was saying. You know I hardly talk and then when I finally do I say stupid stuff". Jace strokes his thumb over Kaspers knuckles gently, his eyes downcast.

Jace's breath hitches and he closes his eyes tight, fighting the stupid fucking pain. Jace still holds Kasper's injured hand gently, "Stop it Kas. You didn't have to hurt yourself, you know i hate it when you do things like that to yourself. It wasn't a pity party Kas, i was just talking" he says.

Jace rolls his eyes and says "well someone has to do it....idiot", Jace reaches out and takes Kaspers injured hand gently, he looks it over. "I know it hurts, you've got your pretend you're not dying of pain face on.....why do you do these things Kas, why would you do this?" says Jace.

Jace looks over at Kas with a worried expression on his face. He always worries about Kasper. Jace drives to the local clinic and parks in the small carpark, "come on then idiot, try not to hurt yourself on the way in alright" says Jace. He gets out the car and opens Kaspers door for him. They go into the main entrance and Jace signs them up for an appointment, they have to wait a while.

Jace catches the keys in one hand and smiles over at Kasper, glad that he's forgotten about his question. Jace opens the car door for Kas and then goes round to get in the drivers side.

Jace actually grins at that despite everything, he remembers all the times he and Kas went to the doctors together, Kas wouldn't go without him. Jace smoothed his thumb over Kas's knuckles and says "Come on, he might even give you a lolly... If you behave and don't bite", he looks into Kaspers face.

Jace feels something cold go up his spine. Kasper was really asking.....Jace shakes his head, he moves towards Kasper and takes his hand gently, "Does it still hurt Kas, maybe we should take you to the doctors, just to be sure. I wish you wouldn't do things like that to yourself Kas", Jace knows he is babbling but he can't stop.

Jace spins round to aim a shocked look at Kasper, his first instinct is to make sure Kaspers hand is ok. Jace's first instinct is always to make sure Kasper is ok. But Jace doesn't think it will be welcome this time. "Fuck Kas, it's not like that. I have no fucking idea why they want me, I'm just....I'm screwed up so bad. I want to find one, one that I can at least stand fucking sober. One that I don't feel indifferent kissing or sick to my stomach when I think about her touching me like that" he shouts back at Kasper.

Jace doesn't say anything for a while, not until they get to Kaspers house. Kas parks and they stays there for a moment. Jace looks over at Kasper and says "That's not true Kasper, not for you. It would be so damn easy for you, to have someone love you. It's not like that for me, I won't ever get to have it." Jace gets out of the car and goes into Kas's house. Jace has a key because he stays there so often.

Jace looks at Kasper, REALLY looks at him and wonders when they became so different. Jace turns his head away because looking at Kasper for too long makes his heart ache in a way that's wrong and radiculously painful, "I don't want to be fucked up in the head Kas, I want to be normal, I want to love someone and have them love me back, what's so bad about that?" he says.

Jace isn't sure what he wanted Kasper to say, but his words hurt like fuck, which is stupid because he wasn't even talking about them. Not really. Jace wants to meet a girl, a girl he actually WANTS. Why can't that just HAPPEN? "I know Kas. I'm just so tired of feeling empty" he says.

Jace laughs, but there isn't much humour in it, "Should have known you'd say that Kas" he says "You're full of bullshit sometimes...but maybe your right, maybe it's only a one in a million kind of thing". Jace shakes his head and closes his eyes for a moment, then he looks directly at Kasper; Kasper is looking out at the road so Jace can take full advantage of looking Kasper all over intently, "But...I know it's a bit girly and that, but I don't want to fuck everything that moves, not anymore. It doesn't mean anything, and i hate that. I want it to mean something" he says.

Jace sighs in frustration, he leans his elbow on the car door and rests his head in his hand, "They were, my parents. They fell in love when they were our age. Like properly, and then had ME, which they worked through, then had my brother, even after everthing they've been through, and they've been through a lot, they still love each other" he says. Jace bites his lip again, "Don't you...don't you WANT that? Like, maybe not NOW, but one day....because i think i do, i want that" he says.