B.L.’s Comments (group member since Dec 15, 2012)

B.L.’s comments from the A Wild in Colbie group.

Ever's arms go around Brayden instantly, she likes the feel of him inside her, not having sex, just connecting them together. She kisses his forehead softly, she doesn't want to ruin the moment by saying anything.

The pressure builds to breaking point and Ever finds her release, the pleasure flashes through her fiercly despite the slow pace, she grips into Brayden for support and can't help but gasp out "Brayden, oh, den".

Ever complies and opens her blue eyes, they blaze with desire and...something else she isn't ready to name. Ever reaches her peak faster with the look on Braydens face, he is lost in her. Ever is consumed by Brayden, she strokes his face tenderly.

Cas gathers up her stuff and stands too, her dark hair blows about her face as she looks up into his "Ok then...what is your name?" asks Cas.

Ever tilts her head to the side, he has attitude but he is being honest thinks Ever, she looks up intently into his face "I have" jokes Ever with a slight smirk hoping to take away his embarrassment.

Kol looks down at a quiet Jace and then back up at the nurse, "I do understand. And like I said, I will be there for Rory, do everything I can to help her feel more like herself again. But I do think maybe i've been pushing her too far. I love her with everything in me, and I always will. But maybe I was being selfish, i've been working three jobs, but i tried to hard to be there with them both, maybe it wasn't enough. Rory shouldn't feel like she has to please me, just her existence is enough for me" he says honestly. Kol looks through at Rory, it breaks his heart over and over again to see her so broken, so lost, he will be everything for her, he'll try even harder to be there for her. Kol feels like he's dying already with the work, and with Jace, but if Rory needs more them he'll give it. Kol nods at the nurse, "I'll give it everything I have, give her everything, her being happy is all that matters to me", he walks away from the nurse because Jace starts to fuss. Kol goes to change Jace's nappy and an hour after that Kol goes back in to see Rory. Jace is thankfully asleep again, Kol takes Rory's hand in his and squeezes it, he see's the box in her hands and says "I was going to give you that tonight, when Jace was in bed, make dinner and give it to you properly, I knew you'd been stressed...I promise Ror, I'll do better, I'll try to be there more, get better shifts or something" Kol breathes heavily "I just want you to feel amazing again, like you did before", Kol closes his eyes briefly but then opens them to look at Rory.

Kol tilts his head "I will always be there for her, always. She's everything to me, but we don't need t be together for that, maybe it's too much for her" says Kol meaning the words "I would do anything for Rory and i'll support her through this until she feels better. Rory's amazing, so strong and beautiful. But somehow she can't see it, and that has to be my fault. So i going to go back in there and support the onlt woman I will ever be in love with, and thats all there is to it", Kol is determined, stubborn. The box is still on the bed beside Rory.

Kol wants to belive her words so badly, "I know, I feel the same way about you Rory. You never believe me, I.want.you, only you, forever. There is no one else that understands me the way you do, or kisses me. Kissing you is like being at home, your my home, my everything. I want to be with you all the time, I would never leave you Rory, i couldn't live without you in my life. Or Jace, both of you, I love you both so much, it hurts, it drives me mad half the time" he says. Kol takes a deep breath, he kisses Rory again but then whispers "But you deserve better than me. I will never leave you, or our son. But you deserve a chance to be really happy, to feel amazing. This proves you aren't happy, not happy with me", his heart breakes into millions of pieces, all Kol wants is Rory. Kol reaches into his pocket and takes the box out, he places it on the bed.

Kol breaks again "Never think that Rory, I always want you, always" he grabs hold of her fiercly, his hands tight around her wrists. Kol stares into Rory's face, willing her to understand "But im not worth you. Your the one person I love, will love forever. Your not mine, you can't be, im not enough. Im going to be there for you, and Jace, for the rest of my life, you two are the only things that matter to me. But you cant love me, not the way I wish you could" he says. The words sting, he feels worse than if he'd taken a physical beating.

Kol nods, the nurse had told him, "I know Rory, the nurse told me...but it's still my fault, I never dseserved you, and I never will, it hurts so much" says Kol desperately. Kol cups her face and kisses her hard. Kol pulls away from Rory. The box in his pocket makes the pain worse, because now Kol knows he cannot have Rory, can't be with her the way he wants to be. "You not mine, you weren't ever. I wasn't enough, I'm so sorry for that Ror, so sorry" Kol all but whispers.

Ever can feel herself slowly reaching her peak, at this pace it feels torturously slow, she closes her eyes to the feeling, it overwhelms her.

Ever blinks, his groan causing her deep pleasure "You.Are.To.Me" gasps out Ever as he moves in and out of her. Ever's eyes burn into his, she holds tightly to him.

The tears won't stop, Kol holds onto Rory tightly, his everything, the love of his life. "I love you so much. I couldn't breath without you Ror. Your meant to be mine forever" he chokes out finally. Kol pulls away to look into her face, those beautiful eyes he had always lived are full of tears, Kol brushes Rory's tears away gently "It's all my fault. All my fault" he whispers, the words feel so true. The little black box is still in his pocket.

Ever gasps and wraps her legs around him tightly, the feeling of him inside of her makes Ever want him forever, she stares up into his face, adoration in her eyes.

Kol breaks. He takes Rory's hand in his, his jaw clenches so tight that it aches. The sadness in her eyes is his fault, Kol knows this and it hurts more than anything. Kol's eyes flash with an overwhelming sense of loss, he doesn't say anthing, he can't. Kol lays his head down on her hand, still gripping it tight, the blackness fills his soul and his heart. He hasn't felt this way since Ireland, since his childhood, the feeling of helplessness, of failure, pain. And for the first time since he was 6 years old Kol can't stop the moisture from spilling out of his eyes, he shudders with the pain of it.

Kol stares into Rory's face, his heart breaks over and over again at her expression. He should have seen it coming, should have saved her. Kol had known something was wrong, he should have pushed, asked more, helped more. Kol wants to touch her, to kiss her, to hold her more than anything. But Kol can't, the pain hits him fiercly, he failed Rory, and Jace. Just like he always knew he would, just like he'd been told all his life, that he would ruin anyone or anything he ever loved. I love you. I love you. I love you.

Kol sits in the waiting room with Jace in a removable care seat. Kol looks down at Jace and smiles reluctantly, his mind swampped with Rory. Kol tickles Jace's tummy lightly, this makes Jace laugh. His son's smile, for some reason, makes Kol feel like breaking. But then a doctor comes out and explains Rory's condition and that Kol can go in and see Rory now if he'd like. Luckily Rory's mum and brother, Max, are away this week so Kol won't have to worry about telling them anything just yet. With a heavy heart Kol picks up the handle of Jace's seat and carries him into Rory's room. For a moment Kol simply stares at Rory, the woman he loves so very much. He almost lost her. More importantly Jace almost lost her. Kol goes to sit by her bed, he places Jace in the oter chair. Kol can feel a wave of emotion crashing in on him from all sides.

What is there to say, she is safe, alive. The fear of losing her is dying down, but Kol still can't get the image of Rory lying in blood out of his head, he doubts her ever will.

Ever can feel herself losing a sense of reality, it is only Brayden and her in this moment, they are connected by so much. Ever whispers "Your everything" to Brayden and kisses him again.

Brayden fills Ever deeply, she can't stop the moans and groans that he creates with his subtle movements, no longer able to stand it Ever reaches up and pulls his head down for a deep kiss.

Ever opens her eyes and stares up at Brayden, "Yes, im alright" she breathes. Ever arches up against Brayden and moans quietly. Kol. Kol. Kol, shit. Brayden feels so amazing, so tender, but Ever can't enjoy the feeling as much now.