Nancy’s answer to “Am I the only numb nuts that didn't get the ending?” > Likes and Comments

I think I'm more veering towards the damaged route. And not only by her father.

I initially had the same thought. I went back and reread the italics in the first part - these were her thoughts. What I came to understand is her fear of the violence in her dreams, probably derived from the violence of her childhood. I think she took the route she thought she only had to avoid that life