Where I found some inspiration...

It is kind weird what things we get use to, what we take for granted, and what we do when we find ourselves without those things.

For the last four years or so I have had a muse...that one special girl who inspired me to write, or who I was trying to impress with my writing. This was actually two different somebodies...one day last fall I woke up and both of them were gone. I didn't think it was a big deal at the time because I had just finished draft one of my first book...of course at some point I was going to have to write draft two and hopefully down the road their will be other books to write and projects to immerse myself in.

Without my muses, without having the feeling of needing to impress some female...my attitude about writing really suffered. While writers tend to have crippling self doubt and what not this was something else...something I did not know how to deal with.

I don't write to make money. I write to not go crazy, and hopefully my agent of business manager find a way for those efforts to turn a profit for all of us. So of course while I felt like my inspiration was gone, and I didn't have a muse...a lot of thoughts started stacking up in my brain and they had no where to go.

That is very bad. Just all around bad...no new things for my team to market, no getting things out of my head for my own mental well being and the depression that follows those two very sad facts.

So I decided to read, and to dive head first into the world of Star Wars books...and low and behold I feel inspired again. Of course that may not last, but maybe it will and my agent can get off my back about my work rate.

It just feels good to feel inspired again, and to not have to depend on anyone else for that inspiration.