Where I feel like there is something I need to say...

I hate this feeling of having something to say and the person I feel the need to say it too isn't really a part of my life anymore. This isn't something really for the public to read or even hear...it is more about getting something of my chest so I can not carry it around with me anymore. I just wanna put it down and stuff and I really have no idea how to do that. I suppose I could just write it in here but that doesn't seem to offer the kind of finality that I am really looking for.

This is not some grandiose message, or anything romantic or anything like that. It is simply something I feel the need to say to explain where I am coming from. The worst feeling in the world is feeling like you have something important to say, but the person you want to say it too either doesn't want to hear it, or it unreceptive to anything you may feel the need to say. That is the hell I find myself in at the moment.

I am not sure what to do about either. The last thing I want is to be a problem for this person. I do not want to upset their situation. I also do not want to be a nuisance or bother them in any way. So for the moment I have to keep this thing I feel the need to say to myself. Respect what is the reality of this situation is, and just hope one day that I will get to speak my peace. That day may never come, and that makes me really sad. However, life has a way of continuing on.
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Published on December 12, 2015 09:30
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