After my boyfriend left me for another girl, I went into a really dark place. I no longer felt beautiful, smart, or confident about myself. I felt like everything I ever thought about myself was a lie. How could he call me all these wonderful things then just leave? To me, without his words of affirmation, I could be none of those things. My self-esteem plummeted and I became more quiet and close-guarded about myself. I started to see only my flaws and couldn't find an inch of me beautiful, inside or out. I couldn't even bring myself to look at the mirror because all I could see was my wide waist, big thighs, and blemishes. All I could do was compare myself to the girl he left me for. I questioned why my skin wasn't as fair, why my grades weren't as stellar, why I couldn't be as sporty, why I wasn't as popular, and so on. I was building up this list in my head on all my imperfections and it was all I could think about.
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Published on January 04, 2016 00:00