‘Is it just me…’ take 3

‘Is it just me…’

Good afternoon, or whatever your time of day is. I hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving, and for those who don’t celebrate, I hope you have had a nice weekend thus far.

I made plans to sit down today and write a bit. I have been given news that I am being offered a contract for publishing, and the idea of editing book three at this point, when I know I have to start at book one all over…kinda made me loose interest in it. If I finish it, I will just act like an impatient child and self pub again, cause I’m so excited to get it out to the few readers I have.  So I started paying a bit more attention to my romance novel, but I’m just not into it. I don’t know if it’s the holiday coming or if I may just decide to scrap writing romance altogether.

I think that may be a topic for another day…

I have to say I really enjoy spending time with people, however, I rarely get the opportunity to do so. I feel like I spent so many years wrapped up in a closed shell and never really expressed myself. I think that may have something to do with how my relationships with people are now.

Do we all look back and think, ‘If only I had been a bit more open, maybe I’d be different now?’

Yeah…I don’t either. However, when I see an old friend on Facebook really enjoying life, I can’t help but to wonder why I don’t try to. I sat down and pondered this for a whole 2.2 seconds…yes, that’s how long it took me to figure out the answer to my own question.

It’s simply this…

I am who I am. I enjoy staying home with my face buried in a book reading, writing and simply enjoying time with the husband and my munchkins. I’m not really a fan of heavily drinking, or the club/bar scene. I spend what money I have after paying bills on my kids and that’s ok. I’d like to visit with family more often, but usually my ‘down’ time is spent running around doing other stuff.

However, I have gotten to a point in life, that I have noticed a few friends that I just don’t see/talk to anymore. Some of them were constants for a while, because we worked together or lived close to each other. But now they have new people that they talk to and hang out with. I get a little saddened by it, but then I think to myself, if they wanted to keep in contact, they could have done so. I have to stop putting all the pressure on myself.

So, I dedicate this #3 segment to all the friends who made a difference in who I am, and didn’t stick around to enjoy me.

I don’t know what people expect these days…I mean I barely call my own parents.

Is is just me… or do we all need a little reminder that we are not the only ones who affect our relationships with other people. Just as a marriage is 50/50, I believe …so is a friendship.

And if anyone believes otherwise, just remember…your reading this on the internet…so it must be true! :)

 

~Happy Reading!