themoonstruckme:
Hello, I’m French. I live in a town 20 min...
Hello, I’m French. I live in a town 20 min away from Paris. My english isn’t perfect but I want the world to hear what I have to say. I need to talk. I need to feel alive.
Yesterday I was out with my girl and then we ate at her place. We started to watch the football game (France vs Germany). We fell asleep so we turned off the TV.
We woke up at 1:20 am. From this moment, I thought I didn’t woke up. I thought all of this was a nightmare.
I turned on my phone. 32 calls missed from my dad, sister, messages from some of my friends… Also a Facebook notification asking if I was in a safe place. Surreal. We didn’t understand what happened. We turned on the TV. And we saw the news. I immediately called my dad, to tell him I wasn’t in Paris tonight. I was 20 min away from our house actually. I answered my friend’s messages to tell them I was safe.
This is the first time in my life I check if all my friends, family are alive. I have friends, teachers that live in Paris. That love going to concerts, football games, chilling in some bars, because TGIF you know.
All of this made me realize something. How much I love being a human being. How much I love my family, my friends, my country, my world, my humanity. My hands are shaking while typing this message. I cry. People need to get that too. Wherever you are, take care, take care of your family, your friends, and everyone.
After that, me and my girl took each other’s hand. We hugged in silence full of pain. This is the second time we live a moment like this (as you may know, in 01.2015, Charlie Hebdo…). And we cried. She was so scared. I try to calm her down, even if I was so scared to. It feels like a war. I wasn’t in the Bataclan of Paris streets, but it feels like I was there. I feel like this is war. I feel attacked.
All of the schools and universities are closed today. Our president declared the “emergency state” which involves that our frontiers are closed for 12 days minimum. We ignore if some last night’s terrorist are still out. We don’t even realized how many people lost their lives last night. 120 people are declared dead from the attacks. Maybe there are more. This is a horror without name.
Take a look to the picture I put with this post. This is Marianne. The french symbol of democracy, republic and “Liberté, égalité, fraternité”. She is also the symbol of revolution. She means a lot to our history.
Today I cry with Marianne. I cry with every french people. I cry with the world. I want to thank everyone in the world, in the name of all of us, who showed their support to us. Thank you. I feels good to know we’re not alone.
Thank you for reading this. Spread love. Take care. Today we cry. But we will rise again. And to all of this bastards who did that : we will rise again. And there are no place here for you. I don’t believe in god, but religion is not meant to kill people because they are not like you.
Liberté, égalité, fraternité. Vive la République, vive la France.
