Here We Go Again!

I Refuse to Submit What I’m Doing to Stay Busy…This Week

Here We Go Again!

Again – again, my cycle is ramping up. Again, I have to adjust to compensate in all that I do. Again, I enter a world more complicated and stressful than it should be – All because of bad wiring in my brain.

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“For you just joining the us here today, Welcome to … Mad as a Hatter! With your host – Severe Bipolar, and his sidekick, schizoaffective!

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‘Welcome. Welcome, and Thank You, all! We have a great show lined up for you today. A little later on, we will be talking to the makers of Seroquel, and get their take on why their drug has to make the simple task of dreaming become a trip down a rabbit hole even Lewis Carol would have blanched at. We will also try and get a consensus, from all the voices in a bipolar brain, on the best way to deal with things like OCD, emotional responses, and self-worth. I know, I know – but we can try!

Right now, though, I’d like to start the show with a very special guest. Please welcome, some one we hardly ever get to see, once this freak show called ‘Metal Health‘ starts up……Put your hands together for——CONCENTRATION!”

Yeah, my cycle is ramping up. First of the winter cycles, usually longest of my cycles, but only the second worst of the three…usually. For years I’ve been dealing with this, but that doesn’t mean I still don’t get a lead ball in the pit of my stomach…dread and fear over ‘ How bad will it be this time?’

This year I have many outlets to distract myself with, and many things to help bolster my weeks – maybe it will be enough.

I hope it will be enough.