Am I in a dream? Is this a bipolar reality show?

Is this illness really REAL? I ask myself this all of the time.

I was diagnosed with ultra rapid cycling bipolar II with psychotic features in 1995. Now there is a diagnosis! I had my first hypomanic episode in 1980. So I have been living with bipolar disorder for all of my adult life. I'm 47 now. You would think that I would be used to it. I'm not. It always shocks me when I get really sick. The mood swings are just so odd. They can be so random and simply stupid-  I can get psychotic just because someone is rude to me in public? That is crazy! I have an argument with my brother and I get in my car and cry so hard I can't drive? I go out and have fun and meet someone attractive and I get OCD so badly I never call the person again?

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