Cracking Open From The Inside

 Here's a post I originally wrote in 2013 about the process of healing from the inside out.
As I was walking through the woods this weekend, the exposed trunks of trees that had been cut down caught my eye.  They had a distinctive pattern of cracking from the inside that has some strong symbolism.
Twenty years ago, my life cracked open from the inside.  Everything that I thought I was, everything that I believed about myself was false, built on the illusion that I was a victim unworthy of love and acceptance.  That cracking apart led to an amazing journey on the outside, where my career evolved from clinical nurse to energy healing therapist -- which led to becoming an award-winning author.
Recently, I feel like my life is cracking apart from the inside once again.  This time the illusion that is cracking apart is the belief that I am a shy, reclusive person, incapable of a public life, incompatible with sharing the message of my books on a wider scale.  Its a painful, emotional process.  Writing about the insights I am gaining on this internal journey to greater health helps me stay in my higher self.
How about you?  Are you experiencing a cracking from the inside in your life?  This can be in the form of a health crisis, relationship crisis, career crisis, losses, heartbreak, etc.  Although it may seem like the cracking apart is happening on the outside, the real journey is internal.  It can be easy to lose the greater perspective when you are in the middle of it, but don't fight the process. Allow the losses and crisis in your life to crack all the way through from inside and outside, and your inner light will be revealed.  Breathe through the pain, for this is the labor to birth a new self.