Reinvent The Universe ...

Need alone down time To survive threatening circumstancesNeed to listen to the hurt, hear the criesRegrets I try to forget, leave behindI turn a blind eye to the answerVow to leave doubt out of the question to my answerLies survive my lips deny my heart Fear a mishap on the horizonAn angel forsaking our great nation on the verge of denialDoes Gehinnom exist? - Jew’s purgatoryRefuse to accommodate doubts about heaven or hell: GehinnomIntensification exists no doubtFingertips feel my heart beat with passion Sensation alive in my drivePain sears through my womb Pain, rips my soul from a concentration campRevive a better nation based on the assumptionThat they do what they want to and we do what we’re toldSecrets we hold near, they hurt but they stay there I deny what we live throughLive outside my head in the grip of a constant illusion Hear conversations that never occur Survive the delusion I live inside my headRich imaginings of what was said What never was nor will beDie and I never said what I meant to say to you and now I never willThe pain never stops I keep moving my feet to a beat only I hear, I try to help someone hear, Please hear but no one hears but meStanding alone in a grim bleak reality, coming and going aloneSolutions flash by and are slashed off by reality as I follow the path of Dorothy unafraid of what precedes me, lays in wait In a roughened bush burning by the side of an elegant brook In forest of deceit I wander hearing innocent animals slaughtered Cries calling out in my head instead Reality frozen in a time frame Waiting for a way out of the underflow I call to every passer by I seePlease, I beg, a hand please, I beg you don’t hurt me I’m only a first time offender I didn’t mean to raise my hand, Absolution for the abortion, Please stop the pollution, I hear the cries of an ancient race of animals now all dead, There’s no more of them to kill, only a lab created animal exists Please father, a benediction before I go and leave this universeCan you give me a calculation of where you think I’ll be?Father I have sinned, 10 hail Marys and go your way and sin no more I promise, father I have sinnedAfraid there’s another life waiting somewhere to find me Explore, seeking to find my way out of mischief into a glance of an inner richer universeNo exsanguination pleaseTry not to cry but the tears build in my eyes betray meWater builds but doesn’t flow, yet you see meI explode into another me who is she? I don’t know I didn’t make her She is I bubbling beneath the blood Warm ready to burst forth in flames fires Burst forth from my mouth like a dragon breathing fire IExplode into a new meOnce more a reinvention of whom I want to be