I made myself laugh...
Okay – that's not really that hard. Sometimes I get in these moods where I can giggle over nothing for hours… not even when I'm drinking. What made me laugh this time was that I was thinking about this week's blog and how I'm struggling to get started with my next project.
The word startabookaphobia immediately leapt to my mind and I thought… "I've heard that before. I think one of the other Drunk Writers wrote about this."
This was great! This was awesome! I could read this blog and figure out what the other writer said and struggled with. Then I would read all the great comments that gave answers on how to overcome this sometimes debilitating condition.
Only when I checked it was me who wrote the blog. Back in March of last year when I started the book I just submitted to my agent. (Jokes on me - I thought was I going to be done somewhere around June.)
I had the startabookaphobia. Damn!
So I read my own blog and realized all the fears I had about trying to merge two genres… still true. My fear of executing the book in my head on to the paper… I essentially realized that fear. I just don't feel like I went far enough. I know I have to be patient and see what the industry says… but in my gut I don't feel like I delivered. And I couldn't see my way through even with all the help I got (Thanks Molly! Thanks Karen!) to fixing it in a way that would make it right or better. I tried. Maybe I succeeded. But who knows.
Anyway here I am now in exactly the same place almost a year later. I have a book in my head.
I'm no longer afraid of genre crossing – because I'm not going to do it. Nanh aahh. Not me. I learned my lesson. Pigeonhole the *bleep* out of me please! This is good.
The fear to execute is still there. This time there will be less major POVS. (Yeah me! Way easier!) However in my infinite wisdom I decided to do two intersecting timelines that have to feed each element of the story.
That shouldn't be hard right? Even though I've never done anything remotely like this. Getting the past and present to weave together and culminate in a brilliant way so that you can see the mystery in the past getting revealed as you solve it in present tense…
Yeah… I have startabookaphobia again. And they don't make pills for this.
What is everyone else doing this winter? What's next for ya'all. (Says the girl from New Jersey… but don't you just love ya'all!)
The word startabookaphobia immediately leapt to my mind and I thought… "I've heard that before. I think one of the other Drunk Writers wrote about this."
This was great! This was awesome! I could read this blog and figure out what the other writer said and struggled with. Then I would read all the great comments that gave answers on how to overcome this sometimes debilitating condition.
Only when I checked it was me who wrote the blog. Back in March of last year when I started the book I just submitted to my agent. (Jokes on me - I thought was I going to be done somewhere around June.)
I had the startabookaphobia. Damn!
So I read my own blog and realized all the fears I had about trying to merge two genres… still true. My fear of executing the book in my head on to the paper… I essentially realized that fear. I just don't feel like I went far enough. I know I have to be patient and see what the industry says… but in my gut I don't feel like I delivered. And I couldn't see my way through even with all the help I got (Thanks Molly! Thanks Karen!) to fixing it in a way that would make it right or better. I tried. Maybe I succeeded. But who knows.
Anyway here I am now in exactly the same place almost a year later. I have a book in my head.
I'm no longer afraid of genre crossing – because I'm not going to do it. Nanh aahh. Not me. I learned my lesson. Pigeonhole the *bleep* out of me please! This is good.
The fear to execute is still there. This time there will be less major POVS. (Yeah me! Way easier!) However in my infinite wisdom I decided to do two intersecting timelines that have to feed each element of the story.
That shouldn't be hard right? Even though I've never done anything remotely like this. Getting the past and present to weave together and culminate in a brilliant way so that you can see the mystery in the past getting revealed as you solve it in present tense…
Yeah… I have startabookaphobia again. And they don't make pills for this.
What is everyone else doing this winter? What's next for ya'all. (Says the girl from New Jersey… but don't you just love ya'all!)
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