"You and I aren’t ever going to work out, and I know that.It’s why I don’t call the number I still..."

“You and I aren’t ever

going to work out, and I know that.

It’s why I don’t call the number

I still have in my contacts

(even if I sometimes text it. I’m not quite

strong enough to cut you out, yet.)

I haven’t talked to you in weeks, but this morning,

I caught myself imagining your voice

on the other end of the phone. I imagined fixing

all the sideways scaffolding in my chest that

only felt like clutter, after you finally left.

I imagined moving in with the boy you are, instead

of the one I wanted you to be.

When we were dating, I told my parents that

you were the only person I could ever see myself

settling down with.

And I wish I didn’t still believe that.”

- LONELY POET WRITES TO THE ONLY BOY SHE EVER (ACTUALLY) LOVED by Ashe Vernon (via latenightcornerstore)