A Beginning's End

Have you ever left a relationship knowing that if the timing was different- you would still be together?

I sure have.

Those might be the hardest relationships to end. Sure, you have chemistry. He always makes you laugh. And something about him gives you butterflies.

But that being said- something inside you is telling you you need to leave.

He doesn't call.
He definitely doesn't tell you how he feels.
And the intimacy is becoming a problem.

You think about these problems and you finally confront him about them. And when he doesn't change- you decide that enough is enough.

On the day of the breakup, you can't help but be sad though. You can't help but wonder "what if things changed?" What if he was planning to be more open?

You know that in a few years when he’s matured, that these problems would go away. He wouldn’t be afraid of something serious. He wouldn’t have a hard time opening up. And he definitely would know how to use his phone by then.

It makes you question your choice. You remember all of the good times, and you think about all of the times that he made you feel like the only girl in the world.

And sure, those times were great. But were their enough of them to make you forget all of the things that went wrong? All of those times that you wished he’d show you attention, make you feel worthy, and TEXT YOU BACK?

When I hear “Closing Time” by SemiSonic I always think about the lyrics “Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.” Those lyrics give me hope right now. Sure, this is another ending to something great. But, their will be another beginning soon enough.