"I tell myself I deserve morebut I still always come backto you. I could make a livingoff of all..."

“I tell myself I deserve more

but I still always come back

to you. I could make a living

off of all the advice I’ve given

to others but have never

followed myself. I could make

myself a home out of every

apology I’ve given to you

when really you were the one

who should have sighed

I’m sorry’s while my heart

was trying to figure out how

this could all be worth it.

I’m not in pain but I’m not

in perfect health either.

I’m not exhausted but I am

tired of constantly having to

remind you of things I said

when I thought you were

listening. I tell myself

I deserve more but still

I always go back to you.

And I’m just trying to figure out

why it is that I never can learn

from my own manifest mistakes.”

- CB