Note to Self: Conjure.

Love is freedom.

I remember you, wild

Freeing

‘fore you knew

You were the meaning

Of freedom.

Your being

What love looks like

Personified.

Before you realized

Before you needed to self-actualize

Before you went searching, outside

Binding yourself

Within yourself

Beyond your grasp.

Hurting, yourself

Afraid, you were not worthy.

I remember you holy

Whole

I remember you sanctified

A sanctuary for souls.

I remember you,

Your own salvation.

Prayers or spells

Before judgment

You saw no difference in them.

Conjuring.

Within yourself.

Power filled.

Humble.

As your thoughts and dreams became tangible

You believed them miracles

Taught trees grew

Without earth or roots.

You worshiped

An idol

A book named Bible

Til’ fruitless.

Longing to be planted.

Longing is,

A spell

Against yourself.

You surrendered your will.

Bid yourself to submit

To dead languages

And foreign male strangers.

Conjuring.

Shape shifter.

You became a misogynist

You called it a holy ghost dance

What you did

Before the whole congregation.

Grateful

To be baptized

And subjugated.

Conjuring.

Beckoning

Please,

Off your knees.

You’d have no needs

If you’d stop

Giving yourself away.

Pray

For the stars

And the moon

And the Sun

Which you are.

Conjure!

Know

Trees Are grounded!

Trees have roots

And so do you.

Take off your shoes.

Bury your heels

In the plush grass.

Your roots are vines

Of light

Reflecting the colors of your past Ancestors

Unveiling your path.

Dyed and muddied by your life

Feel the connection

Anchoring your instep

Feel your chakras align

Heal.

You, you are divine.

Conjure.

In spells and prayers.

Speak inwards

So loud

Your spirit is bound

To carry the sounds

Elevating.

You up and out

Of all the creations and manifestations

Conjured.

Speak

What spirit shows you.

Speak, like you know you.

Speak your dreams.

Speak lightening and fire

Speak your heart’s desire.

Speak.

You are the bar you are raising

You are your greatest expectation

You are a light

Beaming in the night

Leading yourself to herself

Home.

A spirit

Reckoning

With the flesh.

A mind

An ego

Reasoning against itself

A child who learned false facts

Reared to be self-destructive.

Speak now

As a grown woman

No longer questioning

Loving herself.

Speak

Accepting yourself without exceptions

Or conditions.

Speak as one coming to fruition.

Embrace your intuition

Harness your strength

Speak with the power of your ancestors

Wield your influence

In every realm.

Speak your peace.

Speak.

You are free,

To conjure.