for those who aren’t on my twitter

In the past week…

-I’ve turned 38

-I kinda realized I’m at the same place I was when I was 28.

-I realized You Suck is 3 years old already. It’s also my least talked-about webcomic ever

-Scouring the internet, I find one public discussion about it, and it’s a hate thread

-Thoughts about me never being good and having wasted my life are pretty uncontrollable at this point, I feel extremely suicidal for all of Saturday, and break my alcohol abstinence.

-after sleeping for two days straight, I no longer feel suicidal. I remember how much me and Slipshine have done for internet adult comics, and how much worse they’d be without us.

-as of Monday I’m less depressed and more angry now. I don’t deserve to be where I’m at now. It’s ridiculous that I’m still struggling. I deserve better, and if it bothers you to hear me say this, I’m not sorry. I’m really, really not sorry.

-comics are a field full of creators who get stomped on, and yet we’re never supposed to complain about it. We’re never allowed to talk about our accomplishments. We’re all expected to be completely virtuous paragons of humility. I tried doing it this way for the past three years, since I started You Suck. It’s gotten me a Patreon with a handful of backers, and one hate thread.

-I’ll continue You Suck, but I want it understood how much I really, really hate comics now. I really tried to be patient, folks. I really did.

-I started on Strattera today, so I’m kinda loopy. May not be able to do the next comic ‘till tomorrow ‘cause of this.