“Lord, I’m On “E”…Can I Get a Refill…Fulfilled?” Blog Series Part 21
*This entry is a part of a continuous series, reading the previous entries will help you follow without missing a beat*
After about 8 months I was feeling good so I started applying to jobs. My doctors and I devised a good cocktail of medications that seemed to be working and I should be fine. Finally, I applied to SMC and I worked there for almost 5 years due only to the fact that I was blessed with understanding management. It was rough though, within the 1st two weeks of working I had a setback and was in the hospital for one week and out on bedrest another week. When I returned not only had management held my job but they even asked me about my bills since I had not accrued any leave yet. Upon me telling them I was $500 short, they gave it to me and told me to pay it forward. Although I started as a Calltaker, within 6 months I was promoted to Assistant Training Coordinator, then to Supervisor and then The Training Coordinator stepped down and became my assistant as I stepped into her position all in my 1st year and a half on the job. God can do the impossible I tell you because she wasn’t bitter or anything. In fact, one day she overheard me on the phone with one of my creditors and when I got off she asked if everything was okay? I began explaining how I am playing catch up with bills due to all of my health issues. You know what she did? Two weeks later, she wrote me a check for $5000 dollars and said I don’t have to pay her back! She said I was always doing for others and she wanted to do something for me. Look at God! I was dumbstruck! I was thankful, humbled and overjoyed! However, I had not yet learned how to receive therefore, I had to tell her I would accept if I could pay her something back. She said, “I’ll tell you what, you can pay me back half in payments, when you are ready.” I hugged her tightly, drew up an agreement and we both signed. I know this shouldn’t matter but people need to know this because there are still huge color barriers amongst us but she did not look like me, she was Caucasian. The lessons I learned:
God can bless you through ANYONE
Just say “Thank You”
Don’t block another’s blessings by refusing or altering their seed for you.
During this time, my house has been refinanced about three times to ultimately pay off about $60,000 in debts, hospital bills and needed repairs on the house. All of that left me in an upside down mortgage and a payment of $1740 monthly from that meager $840 I started with 10yrs prior but hey, thank GOD for the means in which to do it. The house has served me well.
These 10yrs began teaching me humility, trust, love, the power of friends and connections. I have had many people who have sown financial blessings into me but I was just beginning to learn how to receive. I had a friend sit me down one time and explain to me when I was saying I want to be in a position to financially bless folk and not be the recipient all of the time. She lovingly said, “You bless people all the time with things money can’t buy. You mentor kids for free. You give away books and CD’s like you don’t need money. You pray with people and for people, you encourage people, you give people hope. See, you are looking at this all wrong…the reason people are always blessing you financially is a direct result of you reaping what YOU sow! So cheer up and just learn to say, Thank You.”
Various versions of this has been reiterated to me by several friends and my very own daughter on different occasions. I’m learning, yes I am!
My most recent “aha” moment came when I was going through the Juicy Spirit Journey and I was working in the root chakra. I realized as a sickly child who through a child’s eyes was burdening her mother, I despised being sick. I feared it. Whenever I would feel dizzy I would fight passing out with all of my little might to not bring any more attention to me or my mom. Well, what we think about we bring about and what we fear we manifest. I inadvertently manifested illness in my life up to this point but NO MORE!
I DECLARE ENOUGH IS ENOUGH over my health, my finances, my relationships and my life! The “Little Girl Lost” excitedly whispered; “what’s next?” She was now looking at these trials, tribulations and triumphs as exciting adventures…she was onto something!
“When you come to the edge of all the light you have known and are about to step out into darkness, Faith is knowing one of two things will happen; there will be something to stand on, or you will be taught to fly.”~Richard Bach
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