"To whoever loves me next, I’m sorry if I’m afraid of youor if days of flirting turn..."

“To whoever loves me next,

 

I’m sorry if I’m afraid of you

or if days of flirting turn to

radio silence, without warning.

I’m sorry if I make you say the words

over and over and over until I believe them.

(I’m sorry if I don’t believe them.)

I will probably spend more time

worrying about losing you than I spend

trying to keep you. Trouble is,

every single time I’ve ever thought

something was too good to be true–

I’ve been right.

Understand,

I will know how to be vulnerable with you,

but I won’t know how not to regret it.

And I have no idea how deep we’ll be

into this relationship before I admit

I’ve never done this before.

Not really.

Not in any way that counts.

Before I admit that I know

how to put my body inside someone else’s

but not how to make it beautiful.

I probably won’t be easy to love.

Too many people loved me badly,

I’m not sure I know how

to do it right.”

- TO WHOEVER LOVES ME NEXT by Ashe Vernon