Lil Character Work
Feel free to skip this post. Or not. But it's going to be different here for awhile.
See, I've been working on a new series and book one is in stage three of revisions.
No matter what I do, I can't get my heroine's voice right in the opening. I love what's going on with her, I love the character, but on the page, she's stilted, which works for her because in her real life she's somewhat stilted.
But it's not really working on the page right now. So I'm going to use this space to work through that.
Since I haven't really used the space for much more recently I figure that will work.
Switching to Lil's first person POV now.
When you give up a life of luxury, you expect something back, you know? Not awards or accolades, but something. Like Karma or Fate should throw you a bone and say well done.
And God, I'm so stupid for even complaining.
Since I left the beautiful life and traded it in for this dusty border town with its incredible kids and a school with less of a budget than my clothing allowance, I've developed great friendships. I reconnected with my college roommate who convinced me to make this move, and that is awesome. Of course, these days she's gone all the time so yay.
And I've made an incredible new friend in Nancy. I think she wants to change the world more than I do. Together we're making a huge difference in the lives of these kids. I know it.
THAT should be enough. It really should.
But it's not.
I'm building a new life. I don't need...a relationship.
I don't need a guy to fulfill me as a person.
I should have never agreed to dance with him, should have never answered his calls, should have never...well, yeah.
The worst part of all that is that he Kamikazied our relationship AFTER I'd fallen in love with his family.
I hope we can still be friends.
WHO lets that happen?
I guess me.
And that's the problem.
And all of this, all of it, is nothing. Because it's there in the background, but it's not the story.
***Okay, I'm back....and I don't think this did much yet. Maybe she needs to write a letter to her mom tomorrow.
Lil's Pinterest Board
See, I've been working on a new series and book one is in stage three of revisions.
No matter what I do, I can't get my heroine's voice right in the opening. I love what's going on with her, I love the character, but on the page, she's stilted, which works for her because in her real life she's somewhat stilted.
But it's not really working on the page right now. So I'm going to use this space to work through that.
Since I haven't really used the space for much more recently I figure that will work.
Switching to Lil's first person POV now.When you give up a life of luxury, you expect something back, you know? Not awards or accolades, but something. Like Karma or Fate should throw you a bone and say well done.
And God, I'm so stupid for even complaining.
Since I left the beautiful life and traded it in for this dusty border town with its incredible kids and a school with less of a budget than my clothing allowance, I've developed great friendships. I reconnected with my college roommate who convinced me to make this move, and that is awesome. Of course, these days she's gone all the time so yay.
And I've made an incredible new friend in Nancy. I think she wants to change the world more than I do. Together we're making a huge difference in the lives of these kids. I know it.
THAT should be enough. It really should.
But it's not.
I'm building a new life. I don't need...a relationship.
I don't need a guy to fulfill me as a person.
I should have never agreed to dance with him, should have never answered his calls, should have never...well, yeah.
The worst part of all that is that he Kamikazied our relationship AFTER I'd fallen in love with his family.
I hope we can still be friends.
WHO lets that happen?
I guess me.
And that's the problem.
And all of this, all of it, is nothing. Because it's there in the background, but it's not the story.
***Okay, I'm back....and I don't think this did much yet. Maybe she needs to write a letter to her mom tomorrow.
Lil's Pinterest Board
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