Meditation Is Good For You-Riiiighttt. Confessions of a Meditation Failure

I’m being dramatic, I know. I do understand that meditation had documented physical and psychological benefits. I know this so I decided that I would incorporate it into my convent schedule. Nothing too time consuming, I would start out my day with five minutes where I focused on my breathing and cleared my mind, just to get my day started off on a good note. It is the LONGEST five minutes of the day! Now all you enthusiasts out there will say, that is normal. It’s hard at the start. Keep going, it will get easier to spend time focusing on your breathing and keeping your mind blank. I might even agree with you, but that does not make the first five minutes of my morning any easier to get through, at least so far. It does not stop me from wondering “how much longer do I have to keep doing this?” within seconds of setting the timer. I feel like a meditation failure. Well, it is day five of a three week journey. I have some time to get better at this, but how could it be so hard? It’s just breathing!