niqabisinparis:i lowkey don’t like the label “hijabi” because it implies permanence and leaves no...

niqabisinparis:

i lowkey don’t like the label “hijabi” because it implies permanence and leaves no room for fluctuation. fluctuation in faith, in circumstances, in ideology. you’re put in this box, separate from the “those non hijabis.” you’re bombarded with new standards, new forms of policing, new responsibilities that your male counterparts don’t inherit when they decide to grow hair on their faces. it’s just a piece of cloth after all. I was “that non hijabi” not so long ago and Allahu alam if I will be one again. what if I decide to show my forearms? or not care about hair peeking out the front of my scarf? or show my feet? or ankles? what if I’m not timid and soft spoken? have I crossed the threshold into a “non hijabi”? what are the real standards? why do I have to justify everything I decide to do with my body? and why are we so insistent upon categorizing and dividing Muslim women based on how they choose to or choose not to cover? why do we have to become the factor that determines whether or not this ummah is on the right path? what about me keeping this very intimate and personal experience between me and my Lord is so threatening to the Islamic community as a whole? I didn’t sign up for this.