Emuna and Childbirth

I thank Rabbi Lazer for giving me the soapbox today - I have an important message for mothers-to-be.

I was fortunate to hear Rabbi Lazer in Lakewood recently. I want to thank him for having the courage to go out there and yell it to the rooftops about emunah and how Hashem is the true coordinator of all events. I admire that sincerely because I lack the courage to yell to my fellow sisters about the emunah that we are all lacking especially during childbirth. Modern medicine and westernization has taken childbirth - an intimate, private, modest physiological function that once occurred in the home - and has corrupted it into a medical commercialized profit-making industry.

You see,I had my children via c-section. Hashem taught me firsthand what happens to a person when they put their sole trust in Human flesh and not in the Master of the Universe who created something perfect, the whole chilbirth process. Hashem has removed the dirty spectacles from my eyes and has shown me through default via my tribulation of bearing my 2 children through the most unnatural form, surgery. I was healthy and my pregnancy was healthy and yet despite that I ended up with 2 hospital-caused c-sections. In modern medicine, the doctor decides based on his own schedule when and how the baby will come out. When the doctor arrives they right away break the water and whip out the pitocin to get the show on the road to get that uterus pumping. When you start to tamper with mother nature then ultimatly you can break things. But I was conditioned to believe that without their help woman and babies would be dying on the street...

Unfortunalty, I have learned the hard way and I mean hard. I wouldnt wish a c-section on a dog. It has taken me years to work through my anger and despair and try to see the doctor as just a stick in the hand of Hashem. Through reading the Garden of Emuna, I have come to some sort of peace with my traumatic births. I am thankful to Hashem for opening up my eyes that I need to trust Him and only Him. He created natural childbirth and we don't need to run to doctors to have a healthy baby and pregnancy.

I see the truth so clearly that I cry for other woman who are blinded and are running to doctors to get sonograms and all the other stupidity they offer. Obstetrics is just another business in our lowly world - its not Emunah. I pray every day that Hashem should lift the veil that blocks the eyes of women and I hope that they will also merit to find the Emunah that Hashem has shown me. May we merit to be like the holy woman in Egypt who  had no where to turn but to hashem. The Or Hachaim says they gave a two week later due date to their midwives. They had to do this because they could not trust them. Pharoh instituted a hospital protocol that would kill all the male infants. That left them with no other choice but to have faith in Hashem and have unassisted births with just Hashem as their medical provider. I pray every day that Hashem will bring birth back into the homes because any effort I make is a losing battle.

Thank you for listening. RF, a mother from Lakewood