The Center Track 003 – De-railed

I have a confession to make.

I haven’t written anything in months.

Truth.

I had some excellent momentum coming out of the Smokey Writers Retreat I attended back in February and when that week of being away from the world produced 25,000 words in Huntress (my now four times re-started work in process), I thought I had cleared the hurdle this story had presented to me. But I was wrong.

Despite my efforts to write on my train commute to and from my office, and despite my efforts to force myself to write, even when I didn’t feel up to it, I fell off the wagon. Yes, life got in the way. My health got screwy; my treatment needed time to work. (Yes I’m fine, no nothing disastrous is going to happen to me any time soon.) But even though that, I could have found time to plunk down 250 words a day. Hell this blog post so far is 160. But I didn’t . I chose not to. I wrote here and there, yes. But when it came down to a disciplined writing regime, I didn’t even try.

I had hoped that Balticon would give me that push I needed. The weekend was awesome and I have no major complaints about the Balticon weekend. But the creative explosion I had been counting on… did not happen.

Yes, I’ve been working. I’ve been recording narration for the next podcast like mad and should be on track to be wrapped with recording before Mid-June. Production will take time, but at least the audio will have been recorded.

But written composition of fiction… has been flat lined.   I’ve fallen out of the habit, lost what little discipline I had developed and I have once again, fallen off the horse.

So, it’s back to basics. The idea of jumping back in and plunking down 750 words a day is daunting, given how long I’ve been out of it. So I’m back to it from square one. Huntress needs to be finished even if it is utter crap. I’ve left myself a few tidbits to work with and I can pick up where I left off. I’m resetting my quota to 250 words a day, and I’ll work up to the 750 mark I want.   Hopefully… I can get back on the horse.

Time will tell.