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“I don’t think about you anymore.

And I know that writing this

is only fueling my memory by being

set on you, but I have to do this for myself,

and a part of me feels like I need to

do this for you too. I know that it sounds

cliche to say that I will always love you,

but you should know that I’ve always

been a metaphoric fuck, so I will

always love you. My heart just isn’t full

of you anymore. I emptied your promises

from my vessel long ago and instead

of throwing them out, I sealed them

into an envelope addressed to you.

I know how much you’ve always loved

getting mail, seeming important,

having your family see a secret only for you

folded up into a square. So here it is,

your last secret from me, and I hope this one

isn’t one that you hold above a flame

of regret. Because I want you to keep

this one always. I want you to know

how I will always love you but in the end

I will never be fooled into thinking

that you were really the one

who was supposed to be here.”

- “There is something in the mail for you,” - CB