Change is a difficult thing. Even when it’s a transforma...

Change is a difficult thing. Even when it’s a transformation for the better, some of the stages are none too comfortable. In a way, it’s a grieving process. We’re saying goodbye to the old and familiar, and hello to the new and unknown. That can be a scary place to be in.

I’ve had a lot of change in my life over the past six months. The Marine left the military and started school full time. We moved across the country from California to Ohio, and bought our very first home. If that isn’t enough, my oldest is starting school for the first time this year. It’s been a whirlwind that’s brought happiness, sadness, frustration, stress, and growth. So much growth.

The thing about scaling a mountain is once you reach the peak, you know you can do just about anything. You’re stronger than you thought. You stand a little taller, walk with a bit more swagger, and feel the stirrings of bravery you might’ve forgotten.

Once you accomplish a task you didn’t believe you could achieve it’s so easy to look back and feel like superwoman. We realize we really are stronger than we ever thought. I did a resolution that would challenge me this year. Every month I have to do something that scares me. This month it was writing out my comfort zone. I just finished my first new adult with a non-Interracial love match. It was difficult. I second guessed every chapter. I walked away and came back, contemplated throwing the entire thing in the rubbish bin, and continued ahead, regardless. In the end, after numerous rounds of self-editing, I’m pleased with what I turned into my editors. It’s by no means finished. (Thank God for editors and all the polishing they do to turn rough rocks into gems. ) But I’m proud to say I did that. It’s a scary thing stretching your wings and exploring new places. Especially when you’re so comfy cozy in your well-worn nook.

My rallying cry to you would be task risk. Shake things up. ( not too much now. *winks). Make sure you’re really living and not existing or letting things hold you back. I had a real heart to heart with myself. There were things I liked, some I didn’t and blocks I was allowing to happen. I cleared them out, faced the scary bits, and got on with the active search and journey that is happiness. I went back to basics, really thought of what I want to say this year, how I want to say it, and what inspired me to pick up a pen and paper in the first place. So, you may notice differences in my upcoming writing. It’s my hope that you’ll enjoy what you read, and as always voice your thoughts and experiences. Your journeys mean so much and really keep me inspired. Thank you for sharing a part of your Tuesday with me. I’d love to hear about what your goals are, or the things happening for you. Have you begun to do something you love recently?

Soundtrack to Change

1. Changes by Ozzy

2. It’s Time by Imagine Dragons

3. Don’t you Worry Child by Swedish House Mafia