"I’m afraid of myself when I’m alone. I mean, I know I’m not going to do anything self-destructive or..."

“I’m afraid of myself when I’m alone. I mean, I know I’m not going to do anything self-destructive or threatening, but what I mean is I’m afraid to be alone with my thoughts. They are always telling me things I don’t want to know or playing out situations that have never happened and probably won’t ever happen. I’m never sure if they are just trying to protect me or manipulate me. I always have to be doing something.. something with my hands or with the space that is not being filled with someone… or something. So when I tell you that I’m afraid of myself when I’m alone, don’t think that I am in danger or that I need rescued. Just know that when I am alone it’s my thoughts that you should keep in yours.”

- CB