Committing to Writing

I’m in an odd position. I’m between projects. I’ve deliberately put one aside, am in the planning stages of three more, and getting accosted by random ideas in the night. Spiralling plots and character arcs are keeping me from falling asleep.

I should write them down. I should. After all, I went over my regret about not keeping up with all my ideas here.

But to write them down, be it pen and paper or typing the flurry of ideas up….it feels like a commitment. Committing to writing that I will see that one project through to the end before the others. And the plots are still amorphous, the characters still in development. Everything is so variable that I can’t hold myself up to that commitment because I’m not sure what ideas tomorrow will bring when it comes to taming the plot or orchestrating character arcs.

Torn between that fear of commitment and my desperation to not lose the developments I’ve dreamt up, I’m hesitant to write things down wiht paper and pen. As a result, a compromise, I am sending myself emails that I can file away and sort.

But I have a feeling that I won’t be able to flood my email like this for long–I’m nearing certain space constraints despite deleting large files in my inbox and file folders. *pouts*

Perhaps I just need to get over my schooldays associations with binders and make friends with looseleaf and dividers. My brain has a lot of hangups.

What about you? Do you ever get hesitant about writing ideas down in notebooks or word files and want something more…shuffleable? Where you can adapt to how you would organize things?

 

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