Out There, or in Here?

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“Eastern Tiger Swallowtail Papilio glaucus on Milkweed 2800px” Photo (c)2008 Derek Ramsey

They say that the Truth is out there, but sometimes, I wish it was easier to grasp.�� On Wednesday morning, all was calm, serene and well ordered. By the evening, various family events and other unexpected nothings – as well as the effects of a late night – were catching up, and I was anything but calm.

Then I wondered at that. On the surface, nothing had changed. Just��eight hours��after my earlier optimism (which now seemed��na��ve and disappointing)��exactly the same��possibilities��were evident; it was only my expectations that had altered. I had been happy earlier,��ignorant that��‘bad news’ was transpiring,��and was now in a bad mood, even though��that��small crisis was resolving well.

Expecting good news, and instead hearing a deafening silence, or bad news, we��might assume that God is a bit of a sadist: giving us hope and then making us stumble. We could grumble about that, wondering at the see-saw of hope versus experience.

But on the calm surface, all is as it has always been. Outwardly, there��is no reason to be upset or confused. Life just carries on. That truth rests In Here, just waiting until we can be quiet enough to listen.

I think it is time to get back to my reading, so that I can say, ‘I feel very��Zen’ and mean it again. I like that feeling of inner calm, the certainty that knows Life is delicious.

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