“I cried the first time I did heroin. I’d never wanted to do it....

“I cried the first time I did heroin. I’d never wanted to do it. I always spoke out against it. But I was 245 lbs at the time, and I was with the first guy who had ever showed any interest in me. So I did it to feel accepted. Now, I’m always waiting for my next fix. Even when I manage to get clean, the demon is always on my back I always thought I was too smart to be an addict. And I am smart. I sing, I write poetry. There was so much I could have done. And I cry every day of my life. Because I’m too smart for this to have happened to me.”