2015 … The Year of Endings

Ahhh, 2015. The air is filled with that new-year smell. Fresh beginnings, resolutions, sweat, black-eyed peas … everything you need to start your year off right.

For most people, a new year means new beginnings. But, I’m not most people, so 2015, for me, means a year of endings.

Oh don’t worry, this isn’t some grand announcement or cry for help (unless you want to tie down my Muse, then ya, I could use your help). Nope, this is simply me putting my foot down to finish something(s).

I don’t have half-started knitting projects or half-planted gardens. That’s not what I meant by finishing something. The something I need to finish – the really big something – is Pardon Falls, the follow up to Phoenix. And, it’s not that I can’t write those two blessed words – The End. I can. I have, like eight or nine times (I’ve stopped numbering my drafts at this point).

I just can’t seem to feel like it’s finished. I can’t let go. To the point that if Pardon Falls were a canvas, and I was tinkering with it by adding paint, I’m pretty sure we’d be looking at a black canvas by now.

Sigh.

So see, I need it to end. For the characters, for the people who want to know what happens next, and for me.

2015 is about ending Pardon Falls, and then maybe with that ending comes the beginning of the end for Amanda, the final piece of her story. But Pardon Falls isn’t the only ending I have planned for this year. I also plan to end:

1. Self-doubt

2. Fear

3. Pantstering (but I plan to keep making up new words!)

4. Wasting Time

5. World Hunger (a girl’s gotta try, right?)

This list could go on and on, but I probably should start my year of endings with ending this blog post and getting back to work on Pardon Falls. Because, we know, it isn’t going to end itself.

P.S. I finished this blog while waiting to meet a dear friend for coffee. Shared with her that 2015 is my year of endings and she quickly did my numerology. My number for 2015 is commonly associated with endings … (*cue spooky music*).