There are eight days left until 2015...
On any given day, there's something to rant about. For me, anyway... I see and hear things that make me cringe, but I've laid low the past few months, keeping most of my opinions to myself. The reason? I'm tired of it all.
My last rant cost me a lot of people I truly thought were friends and don't even get me started on my shitty summer. But 2015 is right around the corner, and because I don't necessarily like to shy away from the truth, I need a change. I haven't decided exactly what it is, but I wont survive another year like this one. I published four novels and nine novellas, lost friends, but most importantly, I think I lost a piece of myself.
I'm not the same person I was in April 2013 when I published my first novel. In some ways, that's a good thing, but in a lot of other ways, not so much. I haven't been able to write much for almost two months. I've been blocked, or whatever you want to call it. And it's more than just the holidays holding me back...
I won't quit, I'll tell you all that right now. And I'm not looking for attention to make me feel better. Consequently, if you finish reading this post, don't buy my books as a means to cheer me up. The truth is, it's hard out there right now, and it's not looking up for someone like me who hasn't hit a list or gotten a traditional deal. I'm struggling.
Since August, when my hubby asks me what my end of the month paycheck is going to be, I have had to tell him that it's the lowest paycheck to date - that means it's gotten lower and lower with each passing month, until the end of this month, when I can barely even call it a paycheck. Considering I made a full-time income last year, this year has been awful.
And it's not even just the finances. Reviews are harder to get, blog tours are harder to get blogs to post... the whole industry is just... ugh! I don't know how to fix it, or change it, I just needed to get things out. This started as a Facebook post, but it's entirely too long for that.
It is my sincere hope that 2015 gets better. I don't need to hit a list or get a traditional pub deal, but it would be nice to get a pay increase. And maybe not have to struggle quite so hard next year.
PS- This post is sort of all over the place, and I'm sorry for it, but my mind is weird this morning.
My last rant cost me a lot of people I truly thought were friends and don't even get me started on my shitty summer. But 2015 is right around the corner, and because I don't necessarily like to shy away from the truth, I need a change. I haven't decided exactly what it is, but I wont survive another year like this one. I published four novels and nine novellas, lost friends, but most importantly, I think I lost a piece of myself.
I'm not the same person I was in April 2013 when I published my first novel. In some ways, that's a good thing, but in a lot of other ways, not so much. I haven't been able to write much for almost two months. I've been blocked, or whatever you want to call it. And it's more than just the holidays holding me back...
I won't quit, I'll tell you all that right now. And I'm not looking for attention to make me feel better. Consequently, if you finish reading this post, don't buy my books as a means to cheer me up. The truth is, it's hard out there right now, and it's not looking up for someone like me who hasn't hit a list or gotten a traditional deal. I'm struggling.
Since August, when my hubby asks me what my end of the month paycheck is going to be, I have had to tell him that it's the lowest paycheck to date - that means it's gotten lower and lower with each passing month, until the end of this month, when I can barely even call it a paycheck. Considering I made a full-time income last year, this year has been awful.
And it's not even just the finances. Reviews are harder to get, blog tours are harder to get blogs to post... the whole industry is just... ugh! I don't know how to fix it, or change it, I just needed to get things out. This started as a Facebook post, but it's entirely too long for that.
It is my sincere hope that 2015 gets better. I don't need to hit a list or get a traditional pub deal, but it would be nice to get a pay increase. And maybe not have to struggle quite so hard next year.
PS- This post is sort of all over the place, and I'm sorry for it, but my mind is weird this morning.
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